Well my baby Gilinskers told you but I have cancer and something real bad happened. A lot of stuff happened that I can't believe myself.
1.i died
I was throwing blood and my friends we auguring. And me trying to calm down I froze and fell over. My heart stopped. The blood lose for my throwing I lost about 117 ounces of blood and so I died. I came back and I was so freaked out. And I show the picture our the side effects of my blood loss.
2. I when into shock.
I was still freaked that I died for 1 min and 23 seconds that I was trying to figure out what I saw when I passed. It was weird. Because I didn't feel dead but I knew I was. Because I saw my best friend. Who committed suicide two years ago. I was so freak I popped up like a POP-tarts. But I was so spooky I surprised they understood me. But to my surprise I black out aka went to shock (everything said was from my shock stage and from what what friends reads to me)
Jai what's your name?
Amanda
That's not you name.
Jai..
Who are Yall?
Oh no.
Jai it's us
Who's Jai?
You Jai?
Are Yall retarded? I'm Amanda
No your Jai our best friend.
I don't know this Jai bitch but she can fuck off and die she's not my problem.
(My friend told me at this my was taking her gf and this is where it got really messed up)
Ew fucking faggots.
What did you say?!
That fucking disgusting and you deserve burn in hell.
(Out of shock)
What happened?
Fuck Jai!
What...
What happened what did I do?
I had no idea of this actions I was telling them over and over. That it wasn't because I'm dating a girl myself.
But I do not know anything about Amanda. Only the information I was given.
3. Put on life support.
Since I loss so much blood I had to get hooked up because I was un able to function. The doctor told my that I was supposed to die two hour ago from the time we at. But the doctor told me and my parents that what every I was holding to keep doing. If was my friends and family and Gilinskers
They keep me alive and it wasn't for them. I wouldn't be here writing this rn.
4(end) last moments
At this point I got donations out blood from from people that I didn't know. But they saved my life. And I thank them so much. So I had to wait four to see if the blood would corporate with my blood and if didnt.
My parents had the the option to take off life support. Meaning I would die.
So long sad full of crying four hours. I told all my friends I a loved them and if I didn't make to be strong and be themselves. And I wrote I long heartfelt note to Gilinskers I'll copy and paste it.
my baby Natalie. I love you so much. When you said yes to me. I was so scared to ask you out. I had to Plan it out be I wanted it to be perfect. And when you said yes, I cry tears of joy because I thought I was to ugly or to low. I'm glad that I could call you mine💕 you are smut queen💕 and your my queen💕 I love you so much babe❤️
But just in case I going to the hospital and I'm start on bed rest for the next couple of weeks so I won't update.
Thank you guys so much for you support and love💕💕💕💕
I can finally sleep. I've had I long night🙈
🐻 everyone calls me strong bear now🐻
🐻But you guys can call me Jai Bear🐻
