Sober Gamzee

First and Only part.

It was a child on a swing. Higher. And higher. Even higher. So high, you could touch the sky. So high, you could ruffle the bird's feathers and kick the sun.

But the child fell off.

Knees scraped, filthy, alone, absolutely terrified.

The child's dad? Gone.

His best friend? Off with the new girl.

Filthy, alone, and absolutely terrified because when this shit happens it seems like the end of the world.

Gamzee stared at his hands. He stared at the ground. He stared at the blood.

Blood.

what the fuck did you do?

WHY THE MOTHERFUCK DID YOU FUCKIN' STOP?

Because it's wrong.

BECAUSE IT'S NECESSARY.

Neglected.

IGNORED.

it's okay.

IT'S NOT ALRIGHT.

I promise.

I PROMISE.

He ran a shaky hand through his matted raven hair. He slid down the wall he was up against and whimpered. What have you /done?/

His mind was full of nightmares. Nightmares hidden from the happy days and the trips and the drugs drugs dRUGS! :oD

But the drugs drugs drugs were gone gone gone.

And so was Karkat.

So was Karkat.

So was...

Karkat...

And so was Dad.

And so was Tavros.

They were gone without a single shit given.

A door opens. The mentally destroyed child looks up and thinks- ::NONONONONO GET AWAY FROM ME YOU WILL DIE WHAT IF I CARE ABOUT YOU WHAT IF-:: and the other side of this withered child decides that it's a great idea to welcome him. To ask him to stay. Nothing will happen. ...right? :o)

And Karkat approaches. Leave, goddamnit! Leave! So Gamzee stands, a skeleton. He walks up to Karkat and balls his fist in the other's turtleneck collar.

"What," he demands. It isn't a question. Why are you risking yourself. I almost killed the new girl. You weren't there to help me when I fell off the swing, bestfriend. You weren't there to catch me.

And then Karkat replied. He was mad.

"I hate you."

And Gamzee's eyes aren't mad. They're understanding.

"I hate me too."

And Karkat gets that lookon his face. The whole 'I didn't even really mean it. I said it to look tough and now look at me' look. The look that almost broke Gamzee (again).

And so Karkat continues because he has to be the good-guy leader in comparison to the bad-guy dumbass here. "I've always fucking hated you. That's why I never said I loved you or said you were cute or even agreed to be your fucking moirail in the first place. I just nodded my fucking head and you just didn't get the fact that I hated you. Dumbass clown who can't control himself." He tried to be tough. But he couldn't.