You'll be fine

Hey guys!

So I uploaded something after a very long time. Here's a piece for you. Give it a read and comment if you agree. I've been working on two books lately so haven't been able to upload the new chapters for the last one. I have discontinued the last book for sometime. But will surely upload in a little while. Stay tuned!

Give this short read a like. Would mean a lot:)

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What do you do when you are alone? All by yourself and the one person, you need the most is not there for you. All alone, when you need that one person to hug you tightly. All alone, when you need that person to tell you to just let it go, and not let it be? All alone to realize that you have never had that one person you are thinking about. That person is just a part of your delusional fantasy world. The person you talk to every night. With whom you share everything, all of your worst memories that haunt you every night. The past that holds you back. Can't tell your friends or your parents about what is going on with you? Can't tell anyone if you're okay?

You just put that fake smile on your cute little face and tell others that you're totally fine while your imaginary favorite person knows what is going on with you. Sometimes it feels really bad to not be able to share your inner gut feeling and you write, just like I'm doing right now. And you cry while you are writing your feelings, on a piece of paper and you just can't stop your tears from flowing down your eyes and slipping through your cheeks to your mouth. That salty taste that goes into your mouth you just take it in? And you try to remove those drops of tears that are spread all over your face now. You use your sleeves to rub those wet parts of your cheek but somehow you just can't remove that darkness out of your head. All those thoughts of loneliness and all the things that you've been through all you want now is a tight hug from someone. Someone who can hug you for as long as you want. Maybe an eternity? All you do now is cry and try simmering down your voice so that no one else finds out if you are upset. You don't want others to know that you are a scaredy-cat? Well, you're not a scaredy-cat if you're crying but that's what you think you are if you let your feelings out in front of everyone. 

You think of how dumb you are. You hate yourself for being what you are. But then you hate the world for what it has done to you, don't you? You hate every single person in the world. And you hate yourself for what you are. You hate yourself the most, don't you? You have had so much hatred in you for your own self that you are completely blinded by darkness. That darkness has overcome all your light. The pain and that lump inside your throat that has become so big that now you're not even able to cry properly. Hurts doesn't it? Hurts bad. You have a bit of a headache, just can't feel your face now, can you?

 Drowning in your own sorrows, you are all alone, so I'm writing this for you. If you are feeling that pain right now, don't worry it'll all be fine someday. Yes, everyone tells you the same thing, don't they? But believe me, they are not wrong, everything will be fine after a while. Have that hope in you. Take a deep breath with me. On the count of three, two, and one. There you go. Take it in and now breathe out. How do you feel? Still in pain. Yeah, that will go away in some time. Not just like that but it will pal. Just have some hope. 

Everything's gonna be alright. I am not there to hug you right now but believe me, if I were there I would have given you a very very tight bear hug you wouldn't be able to escape. I will hug you for as long as you want. You won't ever be alone. And the lonesomeness, the hollowness you feel every day won't be there for long. You will find your soulmate. Just don't lose hope. You won't be lonely anymore. I promise you.