Till the end of time

Should've said it ( Part 3)

It had been a year since thier last encounter and the kiss, but it wasn't like thier friendship was over they would never let thier ego and pride come in between thier bond, even though it meant pretending what happened between them was a mistake when clearly for the both of them it wasn't.

After "the little incident" as they called it even though they talked about it next to never, Shawn apologized for kissing Camila knowing that she was in a relationship but that didn't mean that the kiss was a mistake, atleast for him it wasn't. But together they came to a conclusion that being just friends was for the best but internally they hoped that one day they could be more.

Camila felt extremely guilty for thinking about Shawn's lips on hers as she laid next to Matthew, her present boyfriend. She tried, she really did to push those feelings in the back of her mind but she couldn't help the butterflies that took flight in her stomach, the adrenaline rush in her veins whenever he posted a picture on his instagram handle or sent her a selfie showing his beautiful face making her sing Gorgeous by Taylor Swift on the top of her voice.
Everytime she thought her feelings for him were slowly subsiding, a song of his would play on the radio and she'd knew there was no way out.

So you want me now?
That's funny
Cause you didn't give a-
Back then
Comin' back around, so sorry
Cause there's no room in my bed
And I'm all good now
Someone else is getting all of me
If you wanted me so desparately
You should've said it

Camila scribbled the words down in an attempt to work her feelings out by immersing herself in the studio. She was struck to found the effect his words, his lips had on her, words and melodies coursed through her and within an hour and a half she had written "Should've said it". All those feelings resurfacing and crushing her as she broke down thinking about all those longing stares and gleaming smiles. There was a time during the IKWYDLS Era when he held her hand firmly yet tightly in hers, the lingering hugs and flirty comments left her thinking that maybe just maybe he liked her too. But then after some time they just drifted apart due to the whirlwind of thier beginning growing careers, yet they shared everything and met whenever possible but she came to the conclusion that she was just her 'friend'.

Then why- why when she was finally moving on with her life, he had to drop the bomb of his confession of love. It felt like she was breaking a little everyday by being away from him, the memories of that kiss would haunt her everyday in the most beautiful way. The fact that Camila knew to be true but didn't wanted to accept was that her relationship with Matthew was breaking apart gradually too.
She felt utterly guilty for not telling her boyfriend about kissing her bestfriend and on top of that she had written a total of four songs for her upcoming album and not a single one was about him.

Shawn had asked her if she wanted collaborate with him on a song he couldn't get out of his head. She told him she'd think about it but she wasn't too sure. She told Matthew about the idea of the song and he liked it until she mentioned it would be a collaboration with her bestfriend and suddenly it didn't seem like a good idea to him. Matthew told her that he didn't liked the way Shawn 'looked' at her and it was too steamy of a song for friends to collaborate on.

Camila dropped the idea and Shawn did too because if he wanted to record this song it couldn't be with anyone except Camila. They went back and forth with the idea, when they met at the iHeartRadio Jingle Ball and spent some time writing and singing the song Senorita together, they were hooked. Now it was Camila who wanted to do the song with him but with his tour coming up he didn't think it was possible.

Now it was January and after months she was in the arms of the man she actually loved and who loved her too with everything he had but was a fool who had taken way to long to admit it. She had felt it everytime she was in the arms of this beautiful man, the way he held her close like she was everything he'd ever wished for. He was afraid that if he didn't she'd run away. They pulled away after a couple of minutes just looking at each other happy smiles taking over thier face.

"Your performance was mind fucking blowing." Shawn said looking down at his bestfriend.

"Thanks." She replied looking down in an attempt to hide the fact that she was blushing.

"So how did you finally make up your mind about doing Senorita?" He asked as they walked to her room.

"I don't know I just love that song plus in the past months whenever I told Matthew about doing the song with you he'd you know just by his expressions and the comments he made it clear that he wasn't on board with the idea and suddenly he's okay with everything I'm doing or want to do... he's acting different and it smells like infidelity." Camila shrugged.

" Um.. I know I don't have a say in this but don't you think just because he's okay with us doing the song it's little insane to think he's cheating on you." Shawn says almost cautiously not wanting to get yelled at by her brunette bestfriend.

" It's not just that....four days ago he told me he had a show in London and to be honest I never took much interest in his live shows and all so I believed him. I logged in to my twitter account and I was tagged in pictures of Matthew with some random girl, I was really confused so I checked his schedule and he didn't even had any show that day...." Camila sighed.

"So why don't you just call him out?"

"I really do want to but I'm not sure and um he's really good at twisting words, even if he's cheating on me he'll make some shit up...so I just want to be sure you know." Camila said shrugging her shoulders.

"Can I tell you something?" She asked and Shawn nodded almost immediately looking at her curiously.
"I didn't really felt that bad when I found out he maybe cheating on me...like I did cry but then I just felt you know kind of relieved.... It's crazy and I'm a horrible person I know but somewhere in the back of my mind I'd be happy if he'd be out of my life... I've not really been feeling happy for a while and when he's away for his trips I... I feel free.....my feelings had been all over the place." She said hanging her face down as in defeat.

Shawn scooted a bit closer to the petite brunette and lifted her chin up with his thumb and index finger.
"You're the best person I know and I'll ever know....it's okay if sometimes you can't figure your feelings out, I won't tell you anything else but Camila please prioritise your happiness."

Camila stares up at his hazel eyes with so much love in them, with so much love for her. She almost decides to kiss those soft lips of his again but she can't do this to him, if she'll be with him she wants to be all in, she wants to him every part of her without any second thoughts or restrains of regret and guilt. She knows she has to figure it all out for her happiness and her love. And in that moment sitting so close to her bestfriend she knows where her happiness and her truly belongs.

A/N: Hiii!! Sorry for the delay but here you go... I don't really when I'll be able to update the next time but it'll take me minimum a week of time. For the time being enjoy this and well you can check my other stories out❤️