Till the end of time

Why -(part 2)

Camila's pov:

Shawn and I were casually texting about Harry Potter and music when I asked him if he had started working on his album.

So, did you start your next album?- C

Yeah, it's almost finished now.- S

What and you didn't even tell me?- C

Well, I thought you were busy...- S

Shawn, you know I'm never busy for you. Now send me your album.- C

Okay..-S

Shawn sent me the link of his album and I immediately connected my headphones, laid on my bed as I started streaming his album.

She listened to in my blood and instantly fell in love with the song. She could relate to the words so well. After she had too suffered from anxiety and depression after leaving fifth harmony. Tears purred in her eyes after listening to the beautiful lyrics and thinking about the familiar situation.

The tune of the next song began, she listened to it but after listening to in my blood for another time.

Fallin' all in you began to play and I intently listen to his beautiful voice and breathtaking lyrics.
This song was truly a fucking masterpiece.
I took my phone and texted him.

In my blood was damn but fallin' all in you is a fucking masterpiece- C

I listened to the next songs where were in the morning, nervous and like to be you.
I danced to where were you in the morning and smiled to the lyrics of nervous. Like to be you was also really good.

Lost in Japan started playing and she couldn't help but smile and connect it to the tension there is between her and Shawn every single time they meet.
I danced to particular taste, what a lit song it is.

Because I had you, was the song that was playing now, and she realised now the album was going in the depths, she was now sure it was about a girl. She listened intently but she couldn't make out who this girl was.

A song called why started playing next and she was curious why was it called why. She listened to the first stanza, and all she could think was about them. The lyrics 'I pretend that I'm not ready. Why do we put each other through hell? Why can't we just get over ourselves?' hit her like a mountain because it was all they had been doing since they were 17.

She listened to the rest of the song and she couldn't believe what she was thinking. Was this song really about her? Was she the one he wanted all this time? Why didn't he say something? Questions like these revolved endlessly in her mind.

She told herself she was stupid about thinking that the song was about her. But she listened to it once, twice , three times and she couldn't believe what she was thinking.

She listened to lost in Japan and because I had you again and that's when all the dots connected, he wanted her, he loved her. She was now a mess of tears and broken sobs. Why? Why didn't he said something when they met a few months ago?

It was a bitter truth that she wanted him as much as he did, but she couldn't have him. She was now in a real relationship with Matthew and he'd been anything but nice to her. She couldn't leave him. Even if in the back of her mind she knew that Matthew was nothing compared to him. She was contingent that she'd not break up with him just because he decided to tell her about all of his feelings suddenly after two years. Hell it took him two years to be ready so now he should be the one to wait.

As much as her heart broke, she knew she had to make that clear to him. She reached for her phone and texted him her vision blurred with tears.

Shawn- C

Hmm?- S

Who is this album about? Tell me honestly.- C

You- S

We need to meet.- C

Okay. I'm coming to LA in a week.- S

Okay- C
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Shawn was now standing outside Camila's house, trying to pull himself together. He took a couple of deep breaths before ringing the doorbell.

"Hey" Shawn said with a small smile. But his smile quickly faded after seeing her red and puffy eyes, she'd got to be crying and he was worried and hurt that maybe it was because of him.

She moved to the side and he took it as his cue to get inside.

After some awkward moments of silence. Shawn decided to break the tension.

"So, what's up?"

"Shawn, don't do this now okay. Tell me why didn't you said something earlier." Camila said fiddling with her fingers in her lap.

"Initially I was going to tell you about my feelings by sending you 'why' just after I recorded it but Scott and Teddy told me to wait cause I was going to see you in New York, so I did." He said after releasing a deep breath.

"Okay...but why didn't you tell me when we met in New York?" She huffed at him.

"I was going to tell you, but then you were like I met this guy...what was I supposed to say mila?"

"So, is it my fault that you didn't confess your feeling like two years ago. Damn I waited for you, but you tell me was I not supposed to move on with my life?" She was now yelling at him.
"Fuck! You could've even told me when we met after the party. I would've told Matthew anything...but now I'm in a relationship with him and I just can't break up with him just because after all these years you decide to confess your feelings." She yelled at him before burying her face in her hands.

"Even after everything we are best friends Camila, how could I possibly tell you that I love you, when you're talking to me about some guy you're seeing. And what would you do that?" He said a little loudly but still firmly.

"Do you seriously not know why I would do that! Because I love you god dammit don't you get it." She said as she broke down on the couch.

"I know Camila and I love you too so much!" He said taking her face in his hands.

He wiped her tears with the pad of his thumb.
At this point they both were looking at each other, lost deep in one another's eyes.
They don't even know who leaned in first in a heart melting blissful kiss. They kissed for what felt like forever before Shawn pulled back noticing something salty in the kiss, realising it was Camila's tears.

Camila eventually got her senses back and she realised what she had done she pulled away immediately as tears started pouring from her eyes.

"No! No! I'm sorry I shouldn't have." She said.

"No, I'm sorry I....."

"Shawn I'm sorry but I think it's getting late so you probably should go." She said looking down at the floor.

"Okay mila." He said softly pecking her face.

"We're still friends right?" He asked concerned etch on his face.

"Yeah...you're still my best friend." She said giving him a small sad smile.

"Camila, I don't wanna force you but I'll just say when you're ready I'm waiting." He said and in a moment he was gone leaving her frozen in her spot.

A week later Shawn send her a song named "When you're ready" and Camila thought that her heart might leap out of her.

That was the day she knew that no matter what he'd always wait for her.

A/N: I'm not crying you are!🤧😢