"friends" - a yoonmin ff ENG

worries

"Jimin, why are you even worrying about stuff like that? Hobi's my best friend. Yes, I post cheesy shit about him, but only because he's the person I could always count on when my life went down the drain. I mean, why else would you think I became such an asshole if it weren't for a shitty past?"  

He slightly blushes and starts fumbling with his sleeves. Gosh, he's just too adorable. 

Well... what if... what if I started opening up to him? Would he open up to me too? I mean... yeah, why the hell not give it a try, right? 

I take a deep breath. Shit, why is this so hard? 

"Uhm... ya know... there was a time, I felt really lonely, too. Like, I really felt left alone. Alone and irrelevant. I thought... well... uhm... I... Oh god, I suck at this, I'm sorry!"

I take another deep breath and run my hand over the nape of my neck.

"I really hated myself back then. I hated myself for even existing and my mind went to a really dark place. And uhm... Well, the point is that Hobi showed me a way out of that hellhole. He convinced me that I'm not alone. I went to therapy while he showed me that I'd always have him... and well... Minnie, what I'm trying to say is that you have Tae and Jungkook and even me, if you want to. You're not alone."

He nods while we avoid each other's gazes. An uncomfortable silence settles around us as another thought occupies my mind. 

"... is there anything else you're worried about?"

He lifts his head up to look at me before hurriedly lowering it again. A slight nod is barely visible to the eye, yet it's there. 

"Is it about those freaking rumors? Do you... well... uhm... wanna talk about it?"
"N-no, not yet."
"Okay."
"Can we go back inside, please?"
"Sure."
"Yoongi?"

I carefully lift my head up to watch him take a deep breath and lifting his eyes to meet mine. What he does next, almost causes me to have a fucking heart attack. He cups my face with his tiny little hands and kisses me on the cheek. 

"Thank you."

His eyes burn into mine and I know that this right here has a really deep meaning. I don't know how to react. My mind simply stopped working, my mouth is slightly agape. He giggles while I'm still staring into his captivating brown eyes.

I mean... Damn, is he beautiful.

By just one simple, oh so seemingly easy move, he makes my heart flutter nonstop: He smiles. He's freaking giving me one of the most sincere eye smiles I've ever seen! I mean... the fuck?! How does he expect me to handle so much beauty?! 

Shit, I'm so whipped.