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Chapter 21
Anger

I sat in the shower balled up as the water rushed over me. My head was empty but full at the same time. It was like I didn't know what to think or how to feel. I lifted my broken hand and stared at it. Was it allowed to get wet? Either way it was too late because it was soaked. If that makes the healing process longer than so be it. I washed up with my other hand and got out of the shower. I brushed my teeth for 2 minutes then put lotion on my body. When I got out of the bathroom, the first thing that I noticed was that Alex was gone. He wasn't in the room or anywhere on this floor.

He was somewhere around this big ass house I thought.

Alex and I didn't sleep together last night. I had yearned for a conversation with another women. So I had slept in his mothers room instead. When I went in there she wasn't doing anything but watching tv. She sat on the edge of the bed with the remote in her hand. She slowly turned her head to look at me, but she didn't say anything. I closed the door behind myself and sat next to her. "You must be another victim" she mumbled under her breath. "Huh" I asked. I was too thrown off by her voice to hear her. Her voice was so melodic like and light. She also had a pretty soft face. "What do you want" she asked.

"Can I ask you a question" I responded. She looked at me and shook her head up and down. "Why do you love your husband" I asked. "Husband" she looked confused. "His dad" I confirmed. "Oh.....did he send you in here" she asked. "No" I shook my head. "Well I think I love him because...we saved each other" she explained. "Saved each other from what" I asked again. "He saved me from myself and I saved him from going down the wrong path. That's the simple way to put it" she said.

"Was it fun and beautiful" I grabbed her hand. "Is that an honest question" she looked at me. I let her hand go and began to zone out. It wasn't an honest question. I just wanted to hear her response. Maybe I could've gotten something from it. What I really wanted to ask is "How did you survive such a long relationship". "I was kind of forced" she looked back at the tv. "Forced how" I raised an eyebrow. "What's your name" she threw me off. "Joridawnie" I answered slowly.

"You seem so angry to me" she smirked softly. "Like that's all you know how to do" she put her hand back in mine. "I'm tired of people telling me that" I sighed. "Well I can't really tell you anything. I'm only 34 and I've been here since I was 18". "Since you were 18" I said surprised. "You ask too many questions" she complained. "No please I just want to know" I begged. "Yes, I haven't seen much other than these walls" she pointed. "I'll call 911" I joked. "I'm not the one who needs it" she smirked. I just laughed to go alone with her joke. "Ah it's too late for this" she yawned. She stood up and walked over to the door. "Here" she tossed me the remote. I caught it and put it on the side of me. "Where are you going" I asked. "I'm going to sleep with my husband" she opened the door. "When you find my son tell him I need to talk to him" she said before walking out. "Wow" I whispered to myself. 

I turned the tv to something more interesting and climbed all the way into her bed. I was just starting to fall asleep, when my phone rang. I thought it was my mom but instead it was my brother. I pressed accept and put the phone to my ear. "Joridawnie please come home you got momma over here tripping and shit" he spoke. "No" I answered simply.  "She saw that video of you at the party" he said. "Where" I asked in shock. "Just go look on Instagram or something. It's literally everywhere. What the fuck were you doing anyway" he said. "Don't worry bout it and don't call my phone no more. Maybe if you learned how to wash dishes she wouldn't need me " I hung up the phone when I was done speaking. I finish drinking my water and went to Alex's room. I slowly opened the door to see if he was there or not. In my luck he wasn't.

I grabbed all of my belongings and left the house. I was confused about my feelings, so I decided taking a break from Alex was the best thing to do.

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TBC