What happened - Nash Grier

Reality hits... Hard

' I can't wait for baby Grier to arrive' he said. I haven't took time to think about myself lately I mean the only thing that's been on my mind lately is Nash . I haven't thought about my parents , my uncle / dad that I killed just last night , I haven't been to school in almost a whole month , my scholarship is going to be ruined , and when baby Grier comes along I'm not going to be able to tumble , do gymnastics , or cheer . Because I'll be taking care of my child . How am I going to support baby Grier if I don't even have myself completely supported .. I have to get my shit together before the baby comes along . I'm gonna have to start going back to school and when it gets later in the pregnancy I'm gonna have Nash bring my stuff home for me . As soon as the baby comes I'm starting back on my exercise routine , so I can be flexible again .. And I bet my friends miss me ... SHIT ALEENA I mentally scream , I haven't talked to her at all I tell Nash to get my purse (that Elizabeth kindly brought to the hospital ) when he handed it to me I instantly scrambled for my phone I turned it on all I seen on the screen was
120 missed texts from 'Leena beena'
300 missed calls from 'Leena beena'
I called her back as soon as I could .
-hello?
-Leena ? I creak out
-EILEEN HOLY FUCK ARE YOU OKAY IVE BEEN WORRIED SICK ABOUT YOU WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN AND IM SO SO SOOOO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS LEENY . She said frantically.
-well. I'm sort of okay and I've missed you too , I'm currently at a hospital with Nash and his mom and thanks for your kind thoughts . I say
- LEENY why are you in the hospital !?
- I was shot in the arm and stabbed ...
-BY WHO!?
- uncle Ben..
-who the fuck is uncle Ben?
- it's a long story
-well LEENY I'm coming to visit you when you get out text me when you can.
-okay bye leena
-by leeny .
Then I took the phone from my ear and tapped 'end call' and set my phone on the bedside table . I huffed and fell back onto my bed .
" what was that about " Nash said
" that was Aleena" I reply
" oh. I guess she's worried sick about you " he said
" yeah she's protective over me" I say
The room was silent for a while Nash had fallen asleep . Elizabeth had to go to work so I was left with my thoughts again.. I'm gonna start listing off baby names . I grab a piece of paper and start of with girls .
•ivory
•Elizabeth
•avia
•hazel
•Andrea.

Time for the boys
•maxwell
•Alexander
•Bentley
•ferris
•Jacob
I can't believe I'm pregnant.. I'm 18 and pregnant I wanted to be at least 22 when I got pregnant . So I had time to plan all of this out . And I can tell that even though Nash is excited for the baby , he's not ready to parent one
. Not yet , but when he wakes up we're having a serious talk. Neither of us are ready for a kid . But I don't want to abort because I couldn't live with knowingI killed one of my children and I'm not going to put them up for adoption because I don't want them to feel unloved . Like it or leave it that's how I am . I'm going to have to keep this kid . Nash and I are going to love it unconditionally no matter what and we're not gonna give up on them. That's a promise I'm never breaking , even if we feel like we can't do it anymore we're going to push through and keep going . I'm going to have to start looking into parenting classes and things of that nature . Now I have to straighten out my life but I have to plan the babies too. I'm in for a great treat ... And God if I give up slap me with reality and make me try again and remind me things aren't so bad . At least I'm happy with Nash and his parents like me and I have a scholarship and sky will have a playmate now .. Yeah things aren't so bad after all .