I've never been the type of person to let my emotions get the best of me. But what are you to do when you have no one to talk to? No one who will listen to you when you're sad, or laugh with you in times of joy. Pent up feelings of loneliness kept scraping at my heart. I've tried to make friends, but they usually distance themselves from me. They don't like me, and I cant blame them; the feeling's mutual. But I can never seem to stop myself from feeling disappointed.
I tried to make friends online before, although none of the friendships seemed to work out. I can never seem to keep conversations flowing or interesting. Whenever we talk, it's mundane and dull. One sided. With everyone it's always the same.
Even with my family I can't seem to keep a good relationship going. Every once in a while my mother or father would message me a simple "hi" that would lead nowhere. They'd ask how I've been and I'd always respond with "good" or "decent". It used to be the truth, but feelings change and I've always had a difficult time opening up to people. I was lonely. I used to like being alone, with no one to talk to, but it ended up being like having the same meal over and over again. So boring and in desperate need of a change.
However, I knew it wasn't going to change. Not for a long while at least.
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Telescope ~ Dreamnotfound
Fanfictionlone·li·ness /ˈlōnlēnəs/ noun sadness because one has no friends or company. "feelings of depression and loneliness" George is lonely and without friends until someone finds their way into his dreams. ~Dreamnotfound Inspired by Telescope by Cavetown.
