in which the broken girl uses skating as a coping mechanism and finds 'her people' while doing it
fuckshit x female oc
trigger warning ⚠️ this book includes many heavy topics including alcohol, drugs, self harm, sexual references, suicide, physic...
i woke up to a harsh thud at the other end of the house - great, dads passed out again. i really didn't wanna do this today. all i wanna do is skate with my crew. i opened my closet and pulled out the first baggy shirt i could find along with some ripped jeans and my sneakers
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i grabbed my pack of smokes, a lighter, some lipgloss and my board and headed out the door down to motors.
as i got there, the boys were already outside chillin - fuckshit was flirting with some old ladies (no surprise there) and fourthgrade was filming ruben and ray skating. "fuckshit stop bothering those ladies - they don't want none of that" i yelled as i skated up to my friends.
"nah star you're just jealous" star rolled her eyes and giggled as she swiftly said "in your dreams shitfuck" and after giving him a hug (which lasted quite a while on his part) i went and sat on the curb before a man came out of his shop yelling
"get the fuck out of the front of my store! where's kent?" i laughed loudly as ruben yelled "fuck you man!". "i'm not fucking scared of you guys, i fought in fucking desert storm you fuck... you fucking pussies" the man backed away as we yelled at him and fuckshit threw his board while ray told the dude to get back inside.
i notice a kid around maybe 11 or 12 on his bike across the road laughing and i smiled in his direction as i walked back inside and sat on my board on the floor. i noticed fuckshit staring at me but when i caught his eye, instead of turning away, he subtly winked and looked away smiling. 'tf was that' i thought to myself while heat crept up to my cheeks
"star, the fuck you doing on the floor?" ray asked me while i looked up from my chipped black nail polish. "there ain't any room and i'm pre comfortable here" i said calmly. "don't be fucking stupid - you can sit here; or on my lap if you're feeling generous" fuckshit said with a smirk as heat rose to my cheeks.
"n**** the fuck she don't wanna sit on your stiffy" ray said while making all of them burst into laughter. "yeah don't push it babe" i said with a smirk and sat between him and ray.
time skip cause i'm lazy
"aight imma head out who needs a lift?" fuckshit asks the group. "me" fourthgrade and ray say at the same time as they got up from the couch. "ruby?" ray questions.
"nah imma stay for a bit longer n wait till moms passed out" he says with a hint of disappointment in his voice. my smile falters "aight, star?" i look up and wonder how to word it without drawing too much attention to myself. "nah my dads acting up again i might skate home later n sneak in" i say calmly looking at the floor.
"you can crash here or at mine if you ever need aight? i'm sure fuckshit wouldn't mind having you at his either, the horny n*****" ray chucked as they head out the door. "thanks ray, see you losers tomorrow" i say as the bell rings and fuckshit walks past the glass, winking before walking out of sight.
"the fuck was that about" ruben asks. "what?", "that wink, y'all fucking or sum?", "ruby you know fuckshit is just a flirt ion gonna do nothing with his horny ass" i say as i burst out laughing. although i my mind wanders off about how i've liked him since the day i walked into motors, years prior. "nah, he's whipped" ruby said laughing.
time skip - 3rd person pov
after a couple of hours smoking and chilling with ruben, star thought it was best to head home. and as the girl walked in and shut the door she earned a hard slap across the face. how swell.
"where the fuck have you been so late? probably fucking around with those boyfriends of yours you slut" stars father yelled as he kicked her to the ground and her forehead began to bleed. before he even gave her the chance to answer he kicked her in the stomach a whopping three times before growing tired and trudging away to his room - not before grabbing a few beer bottles first.
stars body ached and thought about rays offer on staying in the shop as she laid in her stiff bed before falling into a slumber
authors note hey queens, this is my first time writing a book and holy fuck this chapter is long and literally took forever to write - what do we think?
