she drew us stars - fuckshit x oc

chapter 4

no ones pov:

"aight imma head out - if any of y'all losers can't sleep, come to mine, you know the deal" willow announced as she swiftly grabbed her board and waited for the boys' responses (consisting of hmms and bye star) before walking out the door and skating down the street

to explain willows last statement... sometimes the boys struggled getting through the night at their own houses because of their shitty home life and needed an escape. ruben was getting away from his mom, fourthgrade just wanted to be out of his home, sometimes ray got overwhelmed and had panic attacks while being in his room; knowing his brother used to live in there, and fuckshit just needed to get out of his own head.

the boys would crawl through willows window and just get in her bed; none of them found it weird because they were all friends and willow always took care of them. even though she had a terrible life, she would drop everything to make sure her friends were safe and happy because there was nothing she wanted less than for her life to be the same as her friends.

time skip lol

fuckshits pov:

"fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck" i muttered under my breath as i felt the walls to my big bedroom slowly close in on me.

'parents didn't come home again tonight. it's like they don't even fucking care. they can yell at me about my grades, and how much bud i smoke but when my fucking mental health is at risk they just decide they're not gonna show up huh?' i thought as my mind spun around releasing the same thoughts and images like a song on loop.

*play "if loving you is wrong" by luther ingram lmao trust me*

"fuck this man i'm out" i whispered as i grabbed my board and walked downstairs to the front door knowing no one was gonna stop me. before i knew it i was standing outside willows window lightly tapping to grab her attention; luckily she wasn't sleeping; but staring her her ceiling breathing really heavy with tears in her eyes.

the noise startled her and i cursed internally but as soon as the window slid open and i was met with her bright smile and shiny eyes, i was instantly calmed.

"hey bub come in" willow smiled, wiping a small tear from the corner of her eye as she shuffled over on her bed, leaving room for me to crawl in and slowly collapse on her comfortable bed. she leaned back onto her headboard and sniffled before giving me a large smile and motioning me to come lie in her lap. i leaned into her warm body and she flinched slightly. my heart sped up as he started to play with my hair; which is something i usually hate but she calms me down so i usually ask her to do it.

"dunno, couldn't sleep" i sighed "i'm letting shit get to my head star, i can't take it". that last part came out as a whisper but she still heard it. she always heard me.

"baby, i know it's hard, i know... do you wanna talk about it?" she said softly, her angelic voice soothing my ears.

"no, i don't know what to say" i said kindly as i rolled over on my stomach, resting my head on hers. "i just wanna be with you right now." she shifted uncomfortably and groaned again when my chin dug into her stomach.

i quickly picked my head up and propped myself on my elbows, my eyebrows furrowing in concern. i gently lifted the hem of her oversized pink floyd tshirt and my face dropped as i saw her stomach littered with blue, black and purple bruises like contemporary art in a gallery - only this time, the colours weren't beautiful; they were sickening.

my eyes were brewing with tears as i started to feel sick. it wasn't fair. she's the one person in this earth who doesn't deserve to be treated like this. "it's not right." my voice trembled. "wh-why... why is the world like this, star, you don't deserve this!" i whispered.

"life isn't fair, we know that. at least it's me living this life, not someone who couldn't handle it... someone like jackson." her voice cracked. talking about her brother wasn't easy but she managed. humour was usually her coping mechanism but this wasn't too funny.

to be continued...

authors note:
sorry for being so inactive, i'm currently struggling a lot with my mental health and have no motivation, all i do is sit in my bed and read lol but i'll try to be better ❤️