If He Only Knew 💕

Chapter 17

"Asad please eat something.." I looked at his tired self, his eyes were closed and he was deep in thoughts.. I doubt he even heard me.. "Asad..." I gently shake his shoulder and his eyes snapped open landing on me questioningly.. A fear creeped inside my heart, I hope he doesn't snap at me right now.. I just want him to have something.. "Please eat something, you must be hungry.." I said in a low whisper that I am sure he heard..

"I am not hungry.." With that he stood up for going Allah knows where but before he could leave me there alone, I grabbed his wrist that took both him and I in a surprise.. "Asad you need to be strong, for Begum Sahiba for your siblings.. You have to handle everything, you have to look after your family and if you will starve yourself like this, will you be fit enough for performing all the duties?" The expression on his face broke me..

He is so much in pain and I could do nothing to ease it.. Absolutely nothing... "Please..." I almost pleaded, he took a sigh and finally settled beside me without another word.. Shukran Allah.. I immediately placed the tiffin in front of him and he slowly ate.. Not much but enough to survive the night and I was glad of that.. I stood up from there to bring a cup of coffee for both of us, we need it badly..

"Here.." I forwarded a  cup to him and he took it without saying a word.. We drank in silence.. Begum Sahiba was still not conscious and Doctor has told us that they have to wait till morning and if she didn't wake up till then, that will be  a cause of worry.. I stood up to offer Isha prayer.. Allah is our creator and everything is in his control, I am sure he will help us to get through this difficult situation.. "where are you going?" He asked me the moment I left his side, there was an edge to his every word, like he didn't want me to leave him right now..

"I am just going to offer Namaz.. Don't worry, I will be just in this room.." I pointed to the empty room, "Namaz..." His lips murmured and I wonder when was the last time he prayed to Allah.. He is in desperate need of our Almighty to guide him, help him and ease his Mother's pain.. "Asad, do you want to join me?" I don't know what made me ask this question and I immediately regretted when those words left my mouth..

Stop pushing your luck Zoya, he is already tolerating you a lot tonight.. Don't push him to explode on you.. I started moving towards the restroom to make my wudhu and was surprised when I feel him following me..A small smile lingered on my lips, he was actually listening to me and making some efforts to connect with Allah.. I came outside the washroom to find him waiting for me.. We both silently came inside and started praying, Me slightly behind my husband.

"Ya Allah, please don't break this family anymore.. Begum Sahiba is the key to keep them lock together.. They wouldn't be able to survive without her,please help them.. You have already taken their Father, don't take away their Mother too.. Please Allah cure her please.." I was making Dua when my eyes fell on him who was literally sniffing in Sajdah, I could hear his muffled screams of agony..

"Asad..." I didn't asked him to stop or calm down.. I just crouched beside him and rubbed slow soothing circles on his back.. He  needed this, he need to cry for her.. He need to take out the weight that he is carrying.. I kept rubbing his back when after few minutes, he finally stopped and faced me.. His eyes were red and I could still see few tears lingering behind.. I wiped away his remaining tears with my thumb and before I could say anything..

His sudden hug startled me, I am his legally wedded wife but we were never this close but right now he is hugging me shedding silent tears making myself tearing up too.. I hesitantly wrapped my arms around him and he pulled me closer pressing his face in crook of my neck.. "Zoya, she can't leave us.. She can't leave us.. I can't live without her, I need her in my life.. Those two need her in their life, she has to be okay.."

"Shsh.. Relax, she will be okay... Allah will listen to your prayers Asad.. Allah will listen to our prayers.. She will be fine.. Please relax.." I don't know for how long we keep sitting their embracing each other, crying and comforting ourselves.. I was happy to be here in his hard times. I was happy he chose me to see his broken stance.. I was happy he shared his pain with me.. And I am going to make sure, to help him in every stance of life.. Asad Ahmad Khan is not a wrong Man, he is just a bit lost and I have to make sure to find him and bring him back.. Allah be there for me and help me to fix both my husband and my new family..  Help me to be their strength... Help me Allah Taala.. help me!!

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