12 doses of LSD

6.Elle

After catching up with Lara, I come home to pack my things. My mind hasn't shaken off the memory of Sven showing up today.

He looks different. His dark wavy hair which used to be an unruly mess has now been cut clean, giving a much bolder, sophisticated look. He wears different glasses now. His neatly trimmed beard perfectly sculpts his face and his broad shoulders have been toned compared to the last time I saw him. Maybe because of all the swimming he's been doing over the years.

But his eyes. His eyes felt like every single embrace, every kiss and every breath he shared with me years ago. They felt like warmth. Only this time that warmth was nostalgic, not the welcoming kind. Only this time did I realize someone else is heir to those sincere embraces and not me.

But that's okay. As long as he's happy.

I recollect my thoughts and finish packing. I send a text to Lara, asking her to hide my pills before the juniors finish clearing out the room at the headquarters. I'd be useless if they knew they have employed someone who's mentally unfit to handle such tasks. I don't believe I am incapable of handling things. But I do believe I crave numbness, to get through every single day.

I know Lara will somehow manage to hand me the pills discreetly. There's nothing else that concerns me besides that as of now.

I inhale sharply and walk out the door. Miles waits outside, ready with the rest of my things. " You don't need to bring that much you know" he chuckles, eyeing my items already at the back of the vehicle. "It's just until I get used to being spoilt at a CEO's crib" I roll my eyes at him.

Much to my surprise, when I get in the car Sven's already sitting in the front seat with only a dufflebag and a can of pepsi in his hands. Most guards in their agency have already done these missions before. They have guarded Ministers, Presidents..etc. A CEO wouldn't be any different. Miles sits at the back beside me and the driver begins our journey to Mr.Mavrick's mansion. We remain quiet for the rest of the ride.

I pretend Sven's not there, and doze off a little on our way.