missing kokoro

w i t h o u t [#givemelove2015]

I stand there in the middle of nowhere and everything, astonished, not being able to believe my eyes what I was perceiving.

I had left this almost unpopulated area on the edge of the Milky Way Galaxy' Orion Spur -as Iver used to call it- while fleeing for my life. 

The congress was looking for Iver, and me, Everly Kerr, better known as Eve.

We had grown up near the Virgo Cluster, in the same group of "houses" -as some creatures name it-, an emptiness of time and space for an individual, with a kind of octahedron shape. After the approval of the decree to guard life, as I was following the beings I had to take care of, that at that time were almost only gray aliens, which barely cared about their lives, and gave me a hard time fulfilling my task, I met him, Iver Aspen. Back then, I was a reckless creature, solely a free spirit, and that was the only reason they were looking for us; we didn't really bother about our responsibilities, and that was the leading cause of the destruction of their planet, if we had been there to stop their enemy they wouldn't be suffering, because surprisingly, after their devastation, they developed this skills, really threatening and uncontrollable abilities called feelings.

We had never agreed with the decree, and now we didn't only have to keep up going our existences with the weight of all those deaths but also, the fear of being found, which meant no longer being free.

In a fraction of hysterical eternities, we decided to disguise as common life-beings, and so started our journey across the universe.

At first we infiltrated the beings we hadn't been able to save. They were separated one from the other, each cleaning individually a determined space of the destroyed area.

"They have a strange sensation, a really oppressing one" Iver's eyes told me.

"They have this awareness of their loss... this thought of emptiness that just won't go away." I replied, with this strong anguish consuming myself.

The beings we inhabited kept doing their daily routines, and so we learned they did care about their lives, but put others' before theirs. And there relied the main cause of their spirit-consuming attitudes.

If we stayed there any longer, we could be annihilated, or worse, embodied forever in this short gray aliens.

Afterwards we left, we are recovered considerably when having as host a couple of humanoid tall beings that connected with the whole universe and extracted their energy from it. They didn't have any spirit consuming sensations, but as the last ones, they didn't say anything, they used telepathy, and as well, Iver and I could only exchange a gaze or three.

They were independent creatures, just as Iver, and I used to be, before we needed each other to keep our freedom, and not ending up trapped in an organism, having to suffer, and change from one crature to another every micro-fraction of eternity.

"We're like them" I sighted to Iver

"No" His gaze expressed in a proud tone

"What do you mean we aren't?"

"We do care about others. We hide it but we do, and at times there's people who get in our ways that we'd die every micro-fraction of eternity for" Iver's eyes told me, as they suddenly seemed to enlighten. And those words, made me know it wasn't a casualty that we had ended up traveling through space and time together, I then realized it was the Universe's pan.

"There are beings I'll care about forever" I replied. And the moment that followed I found myself lost in his eyes, and for the first time I could feel the fear that the gray alien felt, that clinging to someone, the voluntary choice of waning your own freedom to never let go of a special being.