"You get one call."
the police office said to me pointing towards the pay phone.
With shaky hands i type in the phone number.
"hello"
I hear at the other end of the line.
"Um hi dad it's alice; I got into a little trouble and I need you to come pick me up."
i just sat there looking as innocent as a could hoping that somehow he could sense it through the phone call.
"Where?"
the dreaded question.
"The police station."
i pulled back the phone expecting him to scream.
"Okay, be there soon."
Although the police station is a ten minute drive from my house it felt like I was waiting in the cell for hours.
Finally, the policeman from earlier unlocked the cell and escorted me back to my parents.
I got into the car and buckled up.
"WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING ALICE? AN UNDERAGE DUI"
my mom yelled as soon as no one could hear.
"I was thinking mom, I'm sorry"
"YOU ARE AN IRRESPONSIBLE LITTLE BITCH"
my dad yelled making sure to emphasize the word "bitch".
"dad please I know it was stup-."
"YOURE STUPID ALICE, AN ABSOLUTE IDIOT. YOU NEED TO GROW THE FUCK UP BECAUSE THE IS THE REAL WORLD WHERE YOU CANT FUCK UP ALL THE TIME."
After that remark I got angry.
"YOU KNOW WHAT JUST FUCK OFF. NO MATTER WHAT I DO IM NEVER GOOD ENOUGH. I WAS FIRST IN MY CLASS. I WAS VARSITY ALL FOUR YEARS OF HIGH SCHOOL. I WAS THE LEAD IN THE MUSICAL. BUT WHEN I MAKE ONE MISTAKE, ONE LITTLE FUCK UP YOU CANT LET IT GO. YOURE TIGHTLY WOUND BITCHES. WHO DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MY LIFE. WHY CANT YOU LOVE ME LIKE A DAUGHTER AND NOT TREAT ME LIKE A TROPHY." I yelled at the top of my lungs. I saw my parent both look at me through the mirror with a sad fragile look. the silence was deafening until
BANG
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"here lies James and Ann Blake
loving parents and spouses
September 26th, 1965-August 9th, 2014
July 11th, 1965-August 9th, 2014"
All I could do was stand there and stare.
This was all my fault.
if I hadn't been drunk driving I wouldn't have been arrested. if I hadn't been arrested my parents wouldn't have had to come pick me up and then we wouldn't have crashed.
if I had known that was the last time I would have seen them I would have told them I loved them instead of telling them to fuck themselves.
I am a disgusting human being. my parents are gone and I lost my scholarship to college. my complete plan for life is ruined.
Everything is falling apart.
I just need a second chance.
I need to restart.
