prince x knight au | trillie |

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((yooo what is up, so I know I'm kinda moving things quickly and that the way they talk is kinda proper but this is like fucking 1800s or some shit like regency era they're going to talk at least a bit odd but I know over time some of this bs I'm putting out will figure itself out, and ima slow stuff down ;)) ))

I am so fucking worried about my Mother and Adie and Tré. I'll risk my life to save them all. I knew it was a bad idea coming out here. There are way too many dangers at this time to be going out frolicking however we please. Things are fucking dangerous and if this doesn't show them otherwise I don't know what will. 

I raced down the steps after Tré. I know I'm disobeying what he told me but I don't give a shit for what he tells me now, I just want to help as much as I can. 

I approached the group, Dagger in hand. Ready to stab at whoever approaches next. I heard someone approaching from behind me. I turned swiftly kicking them back with my right leg before leaning in to stab them. They were quite taller than me but to my surprise not very built. The person who grabbed me from behind was much taller sadly. 

"BILLIE I TOLD YOU STAY BACK!" He was still in combat. He was doing better than I could have ever expected, pushing back and slicing. Managing to land a hit with every blow. He was a spectacular fighter. 

"WELL AS I HOPE YOU CAN SEE I'M A BIT OF AN IMBECILE BUT IM SURE YOU HAVE YOURSELF COVERED!" I was trying to shake out of the grip of the man. He had me in a tight bear hug and he was lifting me from behind. Tré was not just wounding these men, He was killing them. He didn't show a second of remorse. Just one after another, anything to protect the royals is what these knights are taught. Even if it is to kill in cold blood. 

Tré had come to my rescue like the 'knight in shining armor he is. I could hear the stab he gave the man holding me. As the pain rushed through him he let go of his grip on me and dropped to his knees. I didn't wanna look, I could not bear to. I know this man is the enemy but have not been trained as he has for this. I can not look on as the life drains out of someone's eyes.  I knew this man probably had a family as so do I. But now someones who just fully alive holding me up trying to squeeze me to death is laid out in front of me with all signs of life draining out of him. 

I looked around stunned by the death that entranced me all around in my own garden. The garden that had all the beautiful flowers that my mother had picked out. The garden that was where I played as a child. Now it is the garden that is littered with bodies all around. There had to be about 5 bodies laid out now. One that I had fucking stabbed. I was so ready to kill and now it is all hitting me. A rush of guilt ran over me completely and I just wanted to run back to my quarters and shut the door forever.

Tré tried to approach me but I could not look at him at this moment. I just ran, I ran as fast and as far away from the garden as I could. I heard them all yell my name but I didn't want to even hear it. I wished I could be anyone other than myself at this moment. I had never even asked to be a prince. I knew Tré would be close behind me running after me. after all, it was his job to protect me. I shouldn't have ever developed a crush on him during these few days. I don't know if I can look at him in the same way. I know that that he was just doing his job but it all just hit so quickly and I just wanted to run away from all my problems. 

As I ran I could feel him gaining on me. I wasn't the fastest runner or a trained knight for that matter. "Billie, Please stop running you're worrying everyone!" I paid no attention to him or what he was saying. I continued running to where the stables were. I rushed into them and tried to hide in an empty horse stall. I sat down on all of the hay bringing my hands to my face as I wept. I heard him approaching the stall as well. Why could he not just leave me alone? 

He rushed down to my level and tried to hold me. 

"go away." is all I managed to get out between sobs. 

"What..?" 

"I SAID GO THE FUCK AWAY TRÉ!" He'd never heard me raise my voice like this before. He looked stunned and hurt. Just another thing to feel guilty for. He got up and backed away from me with hurt still written on his face. 

"I'm sorry..." I didn't want to hurt him. I just wanted him to leave me alone. I couldn't look at him the same. I know he was just doing what he's always been told to do but I couldn't be around him now. He just stood there, It was against his duty to leave me alone. 

I stood up with my head still down walking past him. I was going back to my quarters. I wanted to avoid any sight of the garden as much as possible. Tré continued to follow behind me, not getting too close but still being near enough to where I could feel his presence. 

Entering the castle I tried running up all the staircases as quickly as possible. getting near to my room I felt a hand on my shoulder. I knew it was him, I was not going to turn around to face him. I just entered my quarters, kicking off my boots to get into bed. 

"Billie, please will you even just look at me?" I paid him no mind. I didn't want to be like this towards him but I couldn't help him. Everything that had happened just hit me so suddenly, All the thoughts of these people's families. They were all gone they could not provide any longer. 

It wasn't even a good idea to have a crush on him in the first place. He's a man I could never be seen with him like that, If anything did work out we'd have to live our entire lives in secret. I don't want to have to hide my love for anyone. No one would understand and we'd both be exiled. I don't want that for him. It's better for me to just see him as my knight. Not a crush, not anything. Just my knight. 

He sat on the side of my bed leaning over to touch my face. 

"Don't." I spoke. He pulled his hand away quickly getting up from the edge of my bed. 

My weeping continued, My sheets getting soaked in my tears. 

My door opened and Atticus stepped in. "The Queen would like to speak with you." I moved to get up from my bed, following Atticus out of the door. We continued down the halls until we reached The Queen's quarters. My Mother and Father didn't always sleep in the same bed, They had their own separate quarters. It's not that they didn't love each other or want to sleep in the same bed it was just tradition. I don't think I could ever sleep in a separate bed from my lover. I'd need their touch and their warmth and knowledge that they are right there to protect me. No not protect me... So I know I'm right there to protect them...

Atticus opened the door for me and Tré to step inside. 

"There you are I was worried sick that you could've been long gone or have gotten hurt" She stood up to embrace me. I got all stiff just from her hugging me. She pulled away then continued, "I understand your guilt, I have been there before. I'm sorry, Billie. I'm glad you have Sir Frank here now to protect you. He is an amazing knight and all of us are lucky to have him under our roof." She smiled at him. I didn't want to hear it, I know he's an amazing knight but he just killed multiple people without a second thought or any signs of remorse. I guess that's what makes him a good knight. 

"I think you should be arranged the marry the Duchess. I'm sure she was impressed by your act of bravery. Even if you did run off afterward." I do not want to be wed to the Duchess this is bullshit. Sure there is nothing bad about her but I do not love her in that way I should be able to pick who I marry for myself. But I did not talk back, I just wanted to go to bed and sleep the pain away. 

I nodded and just dismissed us. 

Tré once again followed me back to my quarters. I could finally go to sleep and not have to continue thinking about all of this bullshit. That is if I can fall asleep. 

I got into bed and blew out my candle. It was not very late but that did not stop me from wanting rest. As I laid I heard a quiet voice speak up in the dim room.

"Goodnight."