snowflakes ; draco malfoy

6. Water

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Something snapped. Something made its way into my mind and made me realise what kind of a fool I was. The kind of fool that would let him play with me and my feelings. He knew I'd get mad, he knew I'd get uncomfortable, he knew, and that was why he was doing it. I showed weakness, I showed that I cared, in some sort of way, but I knew he was satisfied.

He kissed her and made his way back into the circle, still looking at me with devilish eyes, burning though me. I glanced over my shoulder, trying to look as indiferent as I could, and looked at my friends; but they were gone. I saw a few more figures that I didn't recognize, a few ravenclaws and some slytherins, but that was all. I looked to my right and saw Hadley looking at me, looking rather uncomfortable of what just occurred

"Do you wanna leave?" she whispered to me as I nodded slightly. The room was a mess, empty cups, empty glasses from butterbeers, making the room look rather like a bunker. We made our way to the door, parting our ways, Hadley making her way to the Slytherin dungeons whilist I made my way to the tower.

"Everything okay?" she asked me just as we were about to part our ways, ripping me out of my thoughts

"Yeah, I just feel a little dizzy, that's all" I told her, trying to form a sincere smile, hoping it would make my statement look more credible. She looked at me uncertain of what to say and nodded as she turned around to leave "See you in class, Saxton" I smiled "See you, Reign"

As she turned around and was already gone from the hallway, just as I got close to the stairs, the door to the room opened again revealing a figure leaning over the entrance

"Enjoyed the party, Saxton?"

I blinked, the dizziness I was feeling, still taking over my mind, making me at loss of what was happening. It was him that asked me. The person that I realized made me look like a fool, trying to suffocate me into his games, trying to play me like a toy. I felt sick. I didn't want to be weak, to show weakness, especially to him.

"Yes. I did." I turned away and continued walking towards the stairs, hearing chattering behind me. I assumed it was Pansy he was now chatting with, but I didn't dare look. If I would've looked I would've showed that I cared. Did I care? I didn't want to. I was tired of feeling inferior, of feeling stupid, weak. Stupid enough to fall into his trap, weak enough to show that I cared. I cursed myself under my breath, my vulnerability turning into anger. My steps heavy, my body cold, my mind was just dizzy. I felt drugged, I felt drunk, he was making me feel drunk.

The faded chattering I was hearing while I was going to the Tower was the only thing that could keep me sane, keep me away from vulnerability, from anger. The castle looked blissful at night, the glass windows now revealing the night's beauty, simple and petite stars on the night's sky slowly encountering the whole scenery. Ethereal.

My steps quickened, afraid of being caught by any proffesors while wondering off in the hallways. As I got closer to the common room, trying to be as quick as possible I noticed Fred and Angelina in the hallway. They were running, hand in hand, and giggling until they took a turn and went into a different hallway. They had a weird relationship, they weren't considered to be a couple, but neither were they just friends.

Entering the common room I saw Hermione, Ron and Harry sitting on the couches. Hermione and Ron looked like they were having an argument whilist Harry was just sitting, his head resting in his arms

"You told me she'd left already" Hermione's voice settled across the room

"Bloody hell, she's all good by herself as well, I thought she left with Fred and George" Ron raised his arms defensively and turned his attention to me as I entered the common room "Look, she's alive and well" he added rolling his eyes at Hermione as she made her way towards me