I thought having epilepsy is hard, but it's not.
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Turning from side to side in my bed, screaming in pain...my nails digging into my sculp to try to forget the headache that was killing me...
It was really killing me...my body was shutting down each day bit by bit.
I couldn't eat..
I couldn't walk..
Some days I couldn't wake up..
What was wrong with me!!
Is it my epilepsy!?..no it can't be.
Could it be the sever depression I have?!!...hmm maybe.
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_"Hey Roa, you ok?"
No.. I'm not.
_"Why are you not eating?"
I can't feel hunger.
_"Smile my dear, I don't like seeing you like this."
It's getting hard to smile these days mom.
_"She is in so much pain, what do we do!!?"
_"Help!!! She lost consciousness."
_"She is not leaving her room and she doesn't want to go to university"
_ "She has been sleeping for two days!!"
_ "She decided to drop out of university."
_ " She told me that she wants to die and thinking of suicide!!! I can't lose my daughter!!!"
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Yes, I was like that.
And I was numb.
But there was one thing i didn't know....
I had a tumor in my brain.
That tumor was killing me.. messing with my feelings,thoughts, decisions and actions.
I thought I would die because it was a risky surgery.
But here I am... tumor free..and my heart beating.
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The story doesn't end here...I still have more to tell next time.
