In 2012, I was diagnosed with epilepsy, I was only 12 years old then.
They told me about a machine which is called MRI , I hated it so much.
But my doctor found something in my brain, something really small that he didn't know what it was and didn't even care about it and said that we shouldn't give it second thoughts.
My parents were not convinced so we went to other doctors and they all said the same thing.
So yeah I was diagnosed with epilepsy for an unknown reason, I started taking my medication and I was not allowed to use my phone.
In 2017 my doctor said that I don't have epilepsy anymore, i was so happy.
That day my mum kept asking my doctor if we need to have a new MRI image of my brain, but my doctor said that I am perfectly healthy and there is no need for MRI.
So I stopped taking my meds gradually and I couldn't be happier.
In 2018 I wasn't taking any medications and I was able to use my phone and the new laptop that my parents bought for me in the same year.
At the end of 2019 I had an epileptic fit, it was a strong fit. So we went to new doctors and they all said the same thing: " your epilepsy is back because you've been using electronics so much and you need to stop that and take stronger medications"
Everyone blamed me saying that I was irresponsible. But to be honest I only wanted to be a normal person who can play games, watch movies or animes, text my friends and use headphones.
All that was taken away from me again and I was given new medications including antidepressant.
BUT somehow I knew that this is wrong and I believed that....I begged my parents to go and do an MRI scan but they didn't even care..they thought I was a spoiled girl and was only trying to get attention.
When they started to feel that something is not right is when my hands couldn't stop shivering , when I couldn't eat , when I lost more than 10 kilos, when I started to say nonsense sentences when someone speaks to me, and when they couldn't wake me up from my sleep.
