Us- Mattia Polibio

Day 10

Thursday

The whole night I have been crying my eyes out while Mattia was trying to calm me down but nothing worked

Mattia: why are you so upset
Elle: are you dumb or deaf
Elle: he literally said our whole relationship was fake
Mattia: so then why do you care
Elle: cause it's fake
Mattia: don't cry over him it's not worth it
Elle: he was so nice to me at the beginning and now he is such a dick, I said while slamming my face into the pillow trying to cover my red and puffy face

Mattia: have some water, Mattia said while passing me his glass of ice water
Elle: no that has your germs on it
Mattia: we literally shared saliva while we kissed it's not a big deal
I took a huge sip from his water and thanked him before i started crying again

Mattia: i don't know how to deal with crying people
Elle: yes I can see that
Mattia: but as you said he is a dick and don't cry over dicks
Elle: he just said he used me, I said while crying again
Mattia: i know i know and I'm sorry ok ,but you are stronger than this
Elle: did you hear what he said
Mattia: I feel like if I say yes you gonna be upset, plus the walls are really thin here so what do you expect
I let out a loud groan trying to contain my self
Mattia: wanna smoke
Elle:it's 1am
Mattia:so
Elle: I haven't smoked in like a month
Mattia: so let's go then, Mattia said while getting out of bed and helping me get out
Elle: it's cold outside there's no way I'm going to that hill
Mattia: then layer up you idiot , I'm going to my place to get a hoodie and a jacket, I'll be back in 5 min, ok?
Elle: yea yea

Soon enough Mattia opened the door and tried to rush me, I hate being rush.
Elle: I swear if you try and rush me even more I will stay in bed and you can go smoke by yourself
Mattia: damn ok

We got into mattias car and it was even colder outside. I hate Jersey weather with a passion.
Elle: why is your car so cold, what the fuck
Mattia: well wherevam I supposed to go?Alvaro drives us most of the time
Elle: can't believe you trust that fucker to drive y'all around
Mattia: that's what I've been saying but they don't trust me to drive either
Elle: probably cause your seatbelts don't work, i said whole tugging on the seatbelt.
Mattia reached over and tugged on it slowly, I didn't realize how close to me he was until he moved back to his seat, reminds me of our first kiss, which I messed up in so many ways.
Mattia: now was that so hard, Mattia said with a cocky tone.

We agreed to just park at targets parking lot, no one is ever there besides pot heads and child predators. It was wayyy too cold to drive all the way to a damn hill.

We took out a blunt from the ziplock bag(don't come for me with them being pre rolled😔🤚🏻) and snipped off the end Mattia took a lighter out of him pocket and lit the blunt the smell already being so familiar yet so distant to me.

Mattia: fuck I haven't smoked in ages,Mattia said while taking a pull
Elle: I literally saw you smoke at a party 2 weeks ago
Mattia: 2 weeks ago is a long time
Mattia: oh so you watching me now,Mattia said with a smirk displayed on his face
Elle: you were literally eating another girls face off,pretty hard to not see,
Elle: last time I smoked was probably 1 month ago
Mattia: how the hell did you manage that
Elle: it was pretty easy to be honest, just don't smoke, see easy, I said with a wide smile.
Mattia: you so annoying you know that

After passing the blunt back and forth for a while it finally was finished. Smoke filled the car making the windows all foggy
Elle: if someone has to come and murder us we wouldn't even be able to see him, I said in between laughs, oh fuck this stuff really is stronger than I remember
Mattia: oh so you're a dumb high
Elle: the fuck does that mean
Mattia: that you are dumb when you are high or drunk
Elle: I haven't smoked in a month you can't expect me to be smart right now, I said before letting out a huge yawn
Mattia: already tired?
Elle:mmmmm, I said as my eyes got heavier
Elle: you know what you are?
Mattia: handsome and sexy? Mattia said with a smile on his face
Elle: you're a sad high or drunk
Mattia: stop fucken lying
Elle: you always either cry or start getting upset. Remember the last time when I went to your house and you got all sad and wanted to just cuddle, I said while laughing remembering his stupidity
Mattia: don't remind me please

Elle: you know you really fucked up everything
Mattia sighed heavily
Mattia: yea i know, but I'm gonna make sure that I fix everything and especially us
Elle: good luck with that, I said while taking a sip from a water bottle
Mattia: I'm being for real, I'm gonna fix this between us, Mattia said while looking at me dead in the eyes,
Mattia: cause I fucked up with everything especially lying to you, but this time I'm not
Elle: the fuck you mean ,this time??
Mattia: we can talk about it another time, like when I take you out on Saturday
Elle: not this shit again, I have plans
Mattia: with who?
Elle: uhh lee
Mattia: lee is going with kai or something for the weekend
Elle: fuck
Elle: fine but I can't make promises
Mattia: perfect, Mattia said while starting the car
Elle: I actually hate you, I literally just broke up with kahlil and now you taking me out
Mattia: best way to get over a dick is to be with me,Mattia said with a sarcastic smile

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Yuhhh 2 weeks no updating and only a 1000 word chapter☺️☺️love that. N e ways I start 10th grade tomorrow so wish me luck bitches. I'll probably update tomorrow cause of how bored I will be from school. Also if you have any ideas or recommendations comment them!!

Love all of y'all endlessly, y'all are all perfect and I appreciate you so much!! You are all doing so well. Thanks for the support and for 8k readers also what the fuck I have 200k reads on Him, i love y'all all.

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