The day I almost died

Broken death

why why why why why ! me why does not god kill me yet!

What? This couldn't be happening ! How? Is my question. How ? So this is how he made money gambling but not playing fair ? I wish my mom was alive . Why isn't a black whole or a portal sending me a way to death ! BOOM ! I felt a hand on my neck ! It was my dad ! He choked me I fell to the ground did I die ! You complete the puzzle! why do i need this punishment!