i get so jealous of all the people with a group of friends that they just connect with and always, always have a good time with. i stare at them sometimes with pure jealousy wishing i were apart of that group, or had my own.
i'm always so lonely.
sure i have 'friends'. i don't consider it a friendship though, i'd say i just know people rather than including some sort of relationship other than talking sometimes.
i guess i sound a little selfish in a way and a bit stupid. i mean, sure theoretically i could easily make friends, but in reality it's a struggle. i cant talk to someone without creating some sort of awkwardness between us, whether it's something stupid i had said or if i just let the conversation turn dry and fall into an awkward silence.
guess i should start brushing up on my social skills.
