All i ever do was push people out of my life. I never meant to, it just sorta happens. I cant feel love or any emotion at all but guilt. Guilt of how much pain i have caused people. I always try to make things better. But after every chance i try, it always turns out to be a complete fail.
People would laugh at me for no reason. They would call me ugly, stupid, fat. I soon started to believe them. People say I'm different but in reality, I'm just the same as you! No one can change how i cant feel anything.
I cant feel love or happyness.
All i feel are
Pain, stress, sad, scared, and anger. Lots of anger.
Everyone she dated has either called her a bitch for breaking up with her or not even care about her. There was just this one person that stood out to her. After he had broken up with him he still cared about her.
The reason she broke up with him was because she was scared that if she ever loved someone again her heart would be shattered into pieces. She always felt angry.
There was nothing she was as good at than hiding feelings. Everyday for school she thinks about crying but knows that it won't help. So all she does is try her best to hide the pain.
