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                 Zeckell's confession

| Never get too attached to anything . It brings suffering.|

Zeckell's POV:

I was now sitting at my coach here at my office reading the magazine. I looked up when someone's knocked my door and its Calea.

May dala dala itong tasa ng kape.

"Here is your coffee sir." She said while putting the cup of coffee down to my desk.

"Thank you Calea." I politely respond.

She nodded. " Is there anything you want me to do sir?" She added.

"I just want you to ask if your ready later?" Pag tatanong  ko dito.

"Ready for what sir.? " She asked me back habang pormal na nakatayo sa aking harapan.

So.. naka limutan nga nito..

"Didn't we just have a conversation about our lunch meeting later?"Pag papa Alala nito.

"Ay, oo nga pala. Sorry. Yes I'm Ready."

"Good. Sige . ?" I set aside my news paper and drink the coffee na gawa nya.

"Ok no problem." She responded.

" Ok then you can leave now. So, you have a time to get ready ." Dagdag pa nito.

Ngumiti naman ito. And that smile is slowly kills me. Na miss ko ang mga ngiting nyang yun.

"Sure thanks. Sige bye." Tsaka ito tumalikod.

Pag kalabas ni Calea I couldn't help but to think. And I wasn't even sure of what I was thinking . There were a lot of things again swarming inside my head, my mind. Nalilito na naman ako sa tuwing nakikita ko ang taglay na ganda nito. Actually kahit may anak na ito hindi halata sa kanya he looks young and very much perfectly pretty as always.

There were a lot of things that I wanted to ask on her , to say her. Too many things that I don't know where to start. I wasn't even sure of what would I tell her. Should I ask her how she's been for the last four years? Should I asked her how's her baby ? And that fuckin father of her child ? Were they still together? Was everything really better for them ?

God. I'm dying.

It's been dying for me to ask those things. Plinano ko naman tong dinner date eh. Kasali to sa plan ko to win her back and slowly kills her inside like what she did for me.

Lunch meeting:

"What's gotten into you ? I mean kanina lang ang daldal daldal mo. Tapos look at you now umurong na ata ang dila mo." Ang tanong na iyon ni Calea ang pumukaw sa akin.

Andito na kami ngayon sa Isang restaurant , nilalantakan ang mga favorite dishes namin ng were together. Nag kakasundo kami when it comes to food eating and food testing sa bawat resto na papasukan namin. Were not even conscious our weight as long as we both enjoy.

Ito ang gusto ko Kay Calea walang Arte Arte .

Well. , Kumain muna kami kasi one hour pa nman before the meeting. Big project to. Kaya need ko si Calea.

I was sitting in front with this girl of my past. Looks so gorgeous and pretty as always. Hindi nakakasawa na ganda.

" Ahhh sorry for that. Pi ni feel ko lang ang ganda ng place na to.." I answered.

"So , how's your baby ? "
I started the conversation.

" Well, he's very fine, mag school na sya next year." She answered habang isinusubo ang lechon de leche sa bunganga nito.

" Ahhh.. napa check up mo na ba ?"

"Hindi pa nga ehh. Maybe next week."nabanggit ko din kasi na may sakit si Caleb, kaya naka absent ako last day.

"How about the father of your baby? Where is he ?" I couldn't help but to ask.

" Ahhh, well ok naman kami ng ama ng anak ko." The smile registered to her perfect face. And I smile too , covering my real Expression.

My smile fades Pero di ko Yun Pina halata.
I was being dishonest to my self if I said that I didn't feel a punch in my gut.  Tjat I don't feel the pain inside. I was being untruthful to myself again, that I didn't hurt at all.

"Nag uusap pa ba kayo ?" Dagdag ko pa.
Referring to the father of her child.

"Yeah. "She simply answered.

Kung masakit mag tanong , masakit din pala marinig ang sagot.
Pero I guess that's life , that's LOVE.

After a second I leaned forward.

"Your so pretty ." I whispered to her ear .

I felt her tense up. Her playing a mixture of shock and disbelief.

"T-thank you." She reply. Na shock ata ito sa sinabi ko.

Umupo ako ng ayos and take a deep sigh. Before looking at her.
There are things that we really can't control , at Isa sa mga bagay na Yun ang di ko makontrol anmy ang humanga pa din sa kanya sa Kabila ng sakit na dulot nito sa boung Pag katao ko.

She is my fist love , she is my first and everything. And even first heartbreak.

"Calea.. can I ask you one more question."

"Go ahead."

"Nevermind."

I looked straight to her eyes , reading her . Hindi ko Alam kung anong exactly itatanong ko dito. Para akong tanga.

I rested my head on the palm of my hands and closed my eyes.

"Ok ka lang ?" She asked me.

"Yeah, iniisip ko lang anong sasabihin ko sa meeting may Mr. Takishama." I replied.

She nodded.

Maya Maya pa dumating na na meeting namin. And we started to discuss the details.