When you wake up & you feel nothing at all.
Just like your mind "flipped a switch" and you just changed into a completely different person.
Its a scary spot to be in.
You hear the voices getting louder & louder.
You see what is going on around you.
But all you're doing is going through the motions.
Motions your mind has memorized & just does normally.
You're there but not really there at all.
You just copy the emotions around you so nobody knows something is wrong.
You hide it great but at what cost?
Only those who know you the best have a chance to notice something is off.
They just have to look closely enough to see the change.
Your eyes go black & your chest begins to hurt.
But yet this is home to you.
This is where you feel safe.
In the dark parts of your mind.
With all the loud screams and dark thoughts that happen daily.
You just feel nothing at all.
You dont know if you like it or not.
But you dont know how to escape it.
You know how to make it easier some days.
But other days you just let it consume you.
This is what Numb feels like.
Everything & nothing at the same time.
