a sky full of stars

moving

hey. 

it's been a few months again. i decided to move. i picked a small house away from the city and near my parents. 

it's nice. you would love it. it's surrounded by trees and a lake is nearby that i sit at every morning. 

it's lonely out here. quiet. i wonder if you are experiencing the same. is it quiet? are you with others? are you even in the same world as me? 

 i miss you. i feel wrong for trying to move on, but my therapist said that i should. i was too broken. more broken then i've ever been. so it's okay that i'm moving on. or at least trying. 

i still feel numb. people keep coming over to see me, and i put on a fake smile to show them i'm okay, but really i feel nothing. i wonder if they can see through me. 

i'm not okay, but i will be.