Me

Respawn

I'm the type of person who will fight for you. I will cry for you, feel with you. I can treat you bad but I won't, unless you hurt a loved one or me, you are gonna get a somehow revenge.

Emotions is one of the most powerful things. Listening to an emotional song, melody. It makes me think so many things at the same time, just expressing and being my truly me with music. I feel it as an awakening. I imagine being merged with everything. That I have hope. That this world has hope and that our generation is still "alive". Music brings emotions to me. It's like touching them in a way that I get a sensation of freedom, of flying and going far away. It's how I express my pain, my passion, my dreams and goals. Emotion and music are how I proceed things. How I think and feel. How I keep all my dreams alive and I get disconnected from this reality. I travel to the future, far away to a better me, trying to reach the best version of me and to succeed. Success, is what I want. It's what is gonna make me relieved and finally fully complete me.

Last year, I was nostalgic ready to give everything up. Nobody knows that. I wasn't gonna harm myself , I'm not one of those people because I've always been mentally strong and I've always thought of the future. The future is somehow one of the things that keeps me alive and I'm determined to wait for it and work hard for it. I didn't know who I was. I had a mask in my face it was a different ME. Not even me. It was just a girl who was trying to desperately be like others and didn't have a strong ego nor a real identity. I couldn't really recognise myself. Big changes had happened last year and I was not prepared. This made me act and be a different person, almost like I had abandoned myself. I was supine lying to myself. The worst year of ME. It was also the first year of middle school.

After that I finally found happiness. It was like a respawn of me. My clone finally left. She opened her arms hugged me and I merged with her. I finally became me again and realized my worth, power. I started appreciating life, touching life and becoming friends with it. When I touched it, it was so real I cried. I received a part of me back. It was like losing a part of my heart.