Reunited at last

Part 3

Meredith POV

It was 5:00 am I woke up to all three of the kids sleeping with me in my bed sometimes I like to have them sleep with me so I dont feel alone which I have been feeling lately.

I got up and took a shower to clear my head and think about what I had to do when I got to the hospital I am working the night shift tonight so I don't have to go until 7:00 pm.

I went downstairs to get some breakfast I didn't want to wake the kids I made myself some coffee and sat down on the couch to watch some TV .

Me and Derek would always get up at this time to have coffee and watch some tv shows together I miss him so much I still wish he was here. My thoughts were interpreted by Zola coming down the stairs she tried to be quiet but I could still hear her little feel running across the floor.

She came and sat right next to me what are you doing up its 5 in the morning I couldn't sleep Zola said did you and daddy always come down here in the morning like this? Yes all the time Zola I miss him alot right now and wish he was right here right now.

Zola curled up to me and was held asleep again I wish he was right here to i half smiled and kissed her on her forehead before she went back to sleep.

We layed on the couch for the rest of the morning until 10:00 am by then all the kids were up and had waffles for breakfast.

I kept having this weird feeling all day and I couldn't stop thinking about Derek I just keep wishing that he was still alive or what could I have done differently I just feel like he isn't gone but he is I watched them turn off the ventilator myself theirs no way anything could have happened.

If he woke up and they didn't tell me what would be crazy my thoughts were finally interpreted by the alarm I had sat for 7:00 PM and I had to get to the hospital.

I will be writing Derek's part soon I just dont have that much time and I have an idea where I want to go with this I just need to figure out how I'm going to write it .