Stockholm syndrome (Dabi x male reader)

The real reason

Now in bed, you and Dabi lay back to back. Both if you are awake but are reluctant to ask for cuddles. Although Dabi is stubborn, he lets up.

Dabi: come here

Dabi's voice is stern and commanding, yet playful. You turn to your side and clutch onto his back. His broad shoulders tower over you, making you feel safe. Now at ease, Dabi can finally sleep.
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It's midnight and Dabi is still awake. He cant sleep knowing that Shigaraki is on the loose, actively hunting him. His mind is racing with negative outcomes that fix nothing. Suddenly...he's frozen. He can't move a inch. He's paralyzed by the fear that Shigaraki might kill him. His eyes begin to pour out a river as he swears he saw the blue haired man in the corner of his eye. He wanted to yell but couldn't.
                Dabi was in pain as he tried to calm down. His hearing became more attentive as he hears creaks of the floor boards. Thinking someone is in the house, he tries to yell. He feels as if he was underwater.
                                           His intense shivering woke you up. You look at dabi's back to see him shaking. Not sure of what's happening, you call his name.

Y/n: dabi? Dabi!!

Dabi couldn't speak. His eyes were filled with tears as he yearned for help. You flipped him to his side and stared him down.

Y/n thoughts: he's having an attack...shit...

Y/n; Dabi, Dabi look at me

Y/n: focus on my eyes and my breathing

Y/n:...breathe in....

Y/n:...breathe out...

Dabi was following what you said and did.His voice was shaky but it was becoming steady. His shivering slowed down.

Y/n: yeah, yeah just like that

Y/n: are you ok?

Dabi nods his head

Y/n: did you get scared?

Dabi nods again

You pull in Dabi and embrace him. His body was shakiness profusely against yours. His cry's became more vocal as you softly caress his hair. You hummed a tune to help him relax

His tears start to run dry as his voice steadies up. He is now tightly hugging you back.
                                                                       Theres this moment of awkward silence where neither of you know what to say. You ask him questions to calm him down and see what the problem is.

Y/n:...was it Shigaraki?

Dabi:......yeah....

Y/n:...are you feeling better now?

Dabi: yeah

Y/n: do you want some water?

Dabi pulls you in tighter and kisses your forehead. Clutching you tightly, he shakes his head "no". This sudden gesture leaves you covered in tears.

Y/n: wh-why?...

Y/n: why me?...

Your voice breaks here and there. His arms never let go. You break down, crying into Dabi's chest as he holds you. The pitter patter of the rain resembles your heart beat. Fast and irregular.
             
Dabi: what I'm going to say might be hard to believe but here i go...

Dabi: you are one of the only people that can comfort me.

Your cries stop as he continues his story.

Dabi: i never really had a good childhood growing up. Whether it be my fathers abuse or mental abuse. Ive always been mocked or hurt in some type of way.

Dabi: when i ran away from that hell hole...i was lost. I had nothing...i was nothing. I had anxiety attacks almost every day, knowing that my place in the world was never there

Dabi: i tried to do hero work but...it felt wrong. Maybe its me or maybe its the hero society but, something is wrong there. When i joined the underground i felt like i was home. People who felt the same way i did were all in this connected family. Not by blood but by something stronger.

Dabi:...but it never filled the gaping hole in me.

Dabi: but you...you made me feel something that I haven't felt in years.

Dabi:...you made me feel loved

Y/n: dabi i-

Dabi: i dont want to let it go, now that i finally know what it feels like

You peer out from his chest to see him crying softly. His heart beat at the same pace as yours.

Y/n thoughts: was toga right?

Y/n:...i wont go...

Dabi's tears cease when you said that. His face put on a smile, something you've never seen him do genuinely.

Y/n: ill stay as long as i can because....

Y/n: because yo-

Dabi's soft lips meet yours as he looks down on you. Long and tender, this kiss was filled with nothing but pure love.