.i straight up think I'm dieing I feel like shit my whole body hurts 24\7 and my family dont care so I took Ireprophen it helped and now I'm ranting sorry I told my parents I hated them and I regret it so much that right after I said it I cried for three hours straight and I'm so tired but I have school one 15hours that I'm not allowed to sleep till bedtime so that sucks ass and I'm not sure if I want to even go to school I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again but I'm trying so hard not to give up I don't want to but i want to at the same Tim its so hard to fight it and I'm suffering right in front of my friends and family and they don't notice it it hurts I changed so much in the past year and my mom think it happened because of my friends and like bitch shut up I changed because Im scared and I hate myself so just I could kill my self laughing to god sakes I hate her so much I just want to punch her so hard same with my dad last Time I told him I have depression he was like "quit lying because your friend is" like bitch this it's why I don't totally you anything you basted I hate them but I wish I never told them because Im scared of what will happen if I did so now I'm so scared I can't sleep I'm sorry for ranting so much but it felt right oof I hate it when I rant but it happens
