depressed chara x sans

Left Behind

Chara pov

1 week later

Everyone was having a camping trip to the mountain, everyone was invited..... Well except me

I was outside alone as always, I stared at the stars as I walk by the park

And off course I sat in a nearby bench, no one was here so I sat at the bench and sang a song to release my emotions

Sans pov

I teleported to my hotdog stand cause I forgot my ketchup also I was looking for chara, she wasn't in the camp when frisk asked me where she is I didn't know

She said she rented us a private cabin so we both can stay without the others notice

I looked around the park and saw her sitting in a bench, why was she outside in this night

She was humming, and smiling as she stare at the stars, I would say its cute but..... She started singing

Chara:

Just an average girl
She always wore a smile
She was cheerful and happy for a short while
Now she's older
Things are getting colder
Life's not what she thought
She wished someone had told her

She told you she was down, you let it slip by
So from then on, she kept it on the inside
She told herself she was alright
But she was telling white lies
Can't you tell?
Look at her dull eyes

Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night
But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright
Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves
'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see

She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it
Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it
She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound
Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed

She had no friends at school, all alone she sat
And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat
But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake
But no one cared enough to save her from this self-hate

Things were going down, never really up
And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut
She knew exactly what she had to do next
Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck

She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild
"Look at me now! Are you proud of your precious child?"
But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame
It was the world that should bow down its head in shame

She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon
Just don't think, it'll all be over soon
The chair fell down as she took her final breath
It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death

What am I hearing, she was still smiling but tears were now in her eyes she paused

I was crying the song must've meant her life..... Gosh have I been treating her bad back then, she tried to stop her tears and continue again

Chara:

I'm sorry Mom but this world is just not my place

I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in
I've come to realize this world's full of sin
There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space
I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race

It's a disgrace, I was misplaced
Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place
It's okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon
You'll know when your time has come
Just look at the moon

As it shines bright throughout the night
And remember everyone's facing their own fight
But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter
You'll make it through the night
Just hug your pillow tighter

So let the world know, that I died in vain
'Cause the world around me, is the one to blame
And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone
'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on

That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school
So I'm going by the law, "majority rules"
My presence on this earth is not needed any longer
And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger

You're the best friend that I ever had
It's such a shame I had to make you so very sad
But just remember that you meant everything to me
And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key

Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write
And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight
I'm watching over you from the clouds above
And sending down the purest and whitest dove

To watch over you, and be my helpful eye
So this is it world, goodbye

Wait its a song like a letter, it must've come from her suicide note that she left......

Sans:c chara....

She gasped and saw me crying and I ran to her and gave her a hug

Sans:please don't give up on me..... I will never leave you again

Chata:sans.......

Soon after she started crying again and hugged me tightly

Sans:kid I know what you felt, how could I not remember what I've been through?! But did you see me given up?

Chara:I did

I was about to protest...... But she was right

I remember my first suicide in a timeline

At the judgement hall

I hung my head there and my last glimpse was chara but she didn't walked pass me

She collapsed and was crying

Sans:you're right but please, don't do the same mistake I did, what about our promise

Chara:I'm not good at promises too..... I don't even know if I'm going to last that long

Sans:well please fight it..... For me?

She gave me a concern look then sighed

Chara:okay I will

2 months and 19 days left