A Step Toward Darkness (Dean+You)

Realization

PLEASE READ A/N: Reason is the dickwad the molested you. I'm sorry for bringing this up out of no where but I really wanted to add some twist into this story and make it interesting. I was actually molested by a kid named Reason and I find it easier to write when you know the perspective. I have had this happen to me so, in no way do I want someone to be offended by my choices. I hope you like it, I wanted to see Dean's reaction. In the near near future they will FINALLY start the hunt so no worries. I am sorry that I haven't written in so long it's just last chapter was so long I felt like I needed a break. I couldn't find the drive to write and everytime I did it was crappy. So I took a break. You guys deserve good writing I'd rather take a few weeks off than write you a shitty chapter. Enjoy :)

Dean's POV.

I decided to stay up a while I'm not used to getting this much sleep. I just layed there holding _____ in my arms, it was a very comforting feeling. Her head on my chest with my arms wrapped around her shoulders, her left hand resting on my chest, feeling the steady rize and fall of her breathing. My arm must've fell asleep but I could care less ____ looks so peaceful, and to feel the affection, actual affection, not because of my looks. I mean maybe ____ is attraccted to me but, that's not the point. I can tell by the way her eyes light up when she looks at me, the smile that spreads across her face when she sees me in the hallway but doesn't say anything because she doesn't need too, how she so comfortably open ups to me even though she has only known me for three or so weeks. It's her. ______ is a real person who likes me. Not drunk me at some random bar. Me. Someone no one has ever really known.

I feel _____ begin moving around uncomfortably and mumbling in her sleep. ____'s breathing heavily now and rolling around more violently I'm about to shake her awake when _____ jolts forward breathing rapidly. _____'s crying uncontrollably, I took her into my arms and tried to calm her down she was shaking... After calming _____ down I pull her away,holding her shoulders, looking in her E/C eyes, "______, _____. Hey, hey.-" I place my hand softly on _____ cheek"- What's wrong?"

_____ wipes her tears hesitantly, looking down at her at her lap.

"Hey, tell me _____. What's wrong?"

"I just-it's just-I'm fine, it's fine."

"No," I hold her shoulders,"No, it's not fine."

"I. Um-it's was just- it was just a nightmare."

"Oh. I'm sorry." I say softly. I didn't know what to say so I just wrapped her in a hug. She pulled away.

"It was about Reason." ____ says flatly wipping away a last tear. And it's at the moment that I really realize how much this dick really effected her.

"That Son of a Bit-" ____ interupts me.

"No. It just scared me that's all. Okay? I'm fine. I'll be fine."

 I sit up in the bed, "No it's not fine," I yell whisper. "You are such a fucking perfect girl and that son of a bitch hurt you! I've seen alot of messed up shit in my life but no one, expecially you, deserves that," I'm pacing now. "It just gets me so mad that I couldn't have been there to protect you then." I stand by the edge of the bed looking at ______.

_____ climbed over to the side of the bed and put her soft cold hands on my shoulders. Her hands slowly moved up to my neck and she stopped when her hands cupped my cheeks.

"I'm fine. I will be fine. It's been over for a while there is nothing you could've done Dean." ____ whispered.

_____ pulls my head to her forhead. I put my hands over ____'s holding them to my face and soaking in the moment.