The middle of starting over

Why am I mad

I put the note down and continued getting my pajamas ready for bed. I figured since I had already gotten in the shower earlier I guess I didnt have to get in today so I'd just wait till morning came back around. I pulled out my top middle draw where my pjs were and grabbed my pajamas.
I had picked my hello kitty shorts and a spaghetti strap tank top. The shorts were black with random colored hearts and stars on them with hello kitty faces thrown here and there, and the tank top was black. I walked over to my door and slipped on my bunny slippers and went down stairs to grab me a bite to eat.
I grabbed my phone from out of my purse that was lying on my bed and saw that my mom had texted me,
It read: "ow and honey I almost forgot there are leftovers in the fridge, for you to munch on since i didn't cook dinner tonight, love you lots!😍😍
God I hated when my mom try's to speak slang like she's young or something. She claims her self to be '26'.
I mean this time she wasn't speaking slang but she does it all the time.
I headed downstairs to go eat me some leftovers, we had lasagna last night and boy was it good!
Lasagna was my most favourite dish in the world.
Probably because of the cheesy most sauces delightfulness of yum yum fantastical ever!
You no what i mean? Like when you have that favourite dish and you wish you could have it over and over and over Again!?
That's how I felt about lasagna.
I shook my head to get rid of the thought and out of no where this thought of twerking came to mind. So I decided to Twerk.
I rested my hands on the top of my head with my left hand on top of my right, and kicked my left leg to the side and shook it from side to side making my left butt cheek jiggle and I did the same with my right. Than i dropped both my hands down to my knees, bending my knees and dropped my hips side to side making me Twerk.
Then I was gonna get fancy and then I heard
"Aw, Bleu what'r you doing?!"
" Bernard what the hell you scared me".
"Well maybe you shouldn't be flapping your bum all around"!
I kinda sorta had a little image going on and on and on in my head, you know it was like the perspective and view of my brother coming down the stairs and watching me flap my 'bum' all over the place.
Mind you my brother and my parents carry the "British" accent but I don't so it was even funnier to hear him say it.
"Bleu, are you even listening?!" He practically yelled.

"Yeah.....uh......yeah.....gosh...uh....yeah!" I said shaking my head out of my haze.
"Sorry you had to see that little bro..," I said ruffling his hair with my hand.
"Hey stop doing that..,!" He said swatting my hand away from his head and flipping his bangs attempting to fix his hair.
"I'm going to bed and I don't want to see your bum flapping all over the place", he said very tiresome walking up the stairs.
"I lost my appetite, goodnight," he said with disgust
"Nite."
Then I went back to the refrigerator and grabbed my lasagna.
I grabbed me a fork from the draw and scooped the lasagna from out of the pan and put the lasagna on the plate I grabbed from the cabinet and warmed my food up in the microwave.
I ate my lasagna and then went back upstairs to my room.
Before I went to my room I checked on Ben again.
He was sound asleep. Then I went to my room and fell asleep as soon as my face hit the pillow.

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It was around 8:00 when i went to sleep last night I woke up at around noon. I guess I was really tired last night.
I got out of my bed swinging my feet over to the edge of my bed. And ran to the mirror hanging on to my door. And checked how I looked, and then open the door and walked to bens room to see if he was still asleep.
When I opened the door I saw that Ben was gone.
Then my phone buzzed.
I had gotten a text from Ben and it said that he was out with friends and my worries died down a bit.
I sighed and released a breath I didn't realize I was holding.

Then my phone rang, I read the caller ID and saw it was Jen.

"Hi Jen, what's up?" I said
"What's up is I'm taking you to a birthday party with me she says with so much joy" she said sarcastically
"Um okay, let me guess you don't wanna go Huh? I said
"Ow how did you know!?" She said sarcastically
"Fine, Let me tell my mom I'm going, can my brother come to?"
"Yeah sure",
"Kay what time?"
"I dunno three?"
"Kay i'll be there, bye"
I called my mom she said yeah I could go and Ben said he didn't want to go and my mom said he'd just stay at one of his friends house until I got back.
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We got at the party at around 3:30.
"Hello ladies, ow the older kids are upstairs".
"Kay thanks tell Kyle we said happy birthday" Jen said giving the lady a hug.
When we went upstairs, holy crap there were two freakin amazed looking boys there. It looked like there were a few girls and they were all In a circle.
"Hey guys what're you doing" she said very noisey
"Nun just playing 7 mins in heaven, wanna play, your cute "
He said winking at her.
"Uh sure wanna play" she said directing everyone's attention at me. I nodded and stood next to her.
"Okay there is gonna be a change of rules no name pulling just grab a babe and wait your turn, Kay?" He asked looking directly at Jen.
"Josh your up first" he said pointing his direction at the hottie I saw earlier. The boy walked over to me and said " I want you" my heart pounded loud against my chest I thought every could he it but what I failed to realise was that he wasn't speaking to me he was speaking too one other girl be hind me. The girl was tall and skinny with medium length blonde hair with tight curls in her hair. She had Gray eyes with a floral dress on that reached her knees. Don't get me wrong she a really pretty but I wish that I was the lucky girl he was asking.
He grab the Girl by her wrist and She was giggling you could tell she was blushing, he lead her into the closet and slammed the door shut and I heard them giggling and got furious I stormed out of the room and ran down stairs. I don't know why but it made me furious that the it had chosen the girl behind me it wasn't like I owned him or anything but I dunno I just got really jealouse and pretty sure. I wasn't going to see this boy again. When I got downstairs I just stormed straight out of the house.
I literally didn't know what my problem was I didn't even know the freaking guy.
The party was only a few blocks away from my house so I just walked home angry for a reason I didn't know or understand.