Tears of Silence [Hetalia]

_Tears of Silence_

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I am really the only one who takes care of my younger siblings, although some of them are already independent. My disappointment is getting worse when I know that they have dropped out of school all the time to pay for my school fees and our siblings. They work part time for us and keep smiling when they are tired and depressed.

I am not disappointed in them, I am disappointed with myself. How could I not realize all this time, that those whom I consider wingless angels are angels with wings? But fate cruelly broke their wings, and didn't even heal the wounds. They were forced to endure the pain and bandage it themselves. How stupid of me.

I should've known it. I should have helped my siblings paving my younger siblings' way to success, not being the one who accepted all of their help. I am useless. I want to do something, change something, go somewhere. I wanted things to change.

So I decided to offer my help to brother Kham, I will help him to do his work. And I know he wouldn't refuse me, because I really wanted to help him, sincerely. I even asked three of my older sisters. My mind is filled with me thinking what could I help for them.

But beyond my expectation, they refused me. They refuse me to help them with their work. That's not fair! I have already proved that I am competent to help them, but they treat me like a child! But then I saw their eyes. Their eyes were also shiny because of the tears they were holding back. At that moment I realized, I was selfish. I thought of nothing else, I thought of myself. I am very selfish. I turned around with tears in my eyes, but a hand stopped me from going away.

"You must graduate. That's all," Alissa states shortly.

"If we can not raise the status of our family by working, you must be able to raise it with the education of you and our siblings." sister Maria advises.

"You are one of the pieces of our shattered dreams," Kirana hugs.

"But most importantly, you are yourself. And no one could ever be against it," brother Kham pats my head. I cry.

They sacrifice themselves for me, and now, with their hopes, I will fulfill it for the rest of my life. That's why they wanted me to finish my education, because education now is really important. It will give me great honor to bear our family name, and I will not disappoint them. Not a second time. And no more sad "almost".

There will be no more "almost success", "almost survived", and "almost done." It will be "successful", "survived", and "fulfilled." I promise.

Unbelievable! Uncle Oz, I almost forgot about him. He picked us from our school and some of us from our university. Wait, university? Yes. Five of us, including me, are now on this stage. How, you ask? Uncle Oz helped us with our financial crisis so my siblings could have their education, yeay! He helps us with our daily needs too and even takes his role as our substitute parent. Such a nice guy, I said. He is also a humorous person, so we all feel really comfortable at his side. He even makes friends with Nguyen, unexpectable.

Our warm family is once again shining like the sun and calm like the moon. The formula is simple. Hard work equals the key. The key with your family could unlock the lock to happiness. Because happiness is simple.

Finally, I graduated from my college. Seeing those smiles make me smile. Their happiness makes me happy too. This simple happiness, seeing my siblings smile because of me, proudly admitted that I am one of them. I also felt the same feeling when I saw my brothers and sisters graduate one by one with a smile, the pride and joy that burst into my heart was conveyed through happy tears. Yes, this simple happiness that we will always be together was paved with hard work and immeasurable sacrifice. That makes me smile even wider.

Now, we all have achieved our goals. Me becoming a businessman as you know. That's why siblings call me workaholic, and I'm not mad, because that's the fact. But did you know what I am producing? I built a company producing the latest technology so that I could apply it to my own country. Now, we're focusing on eco - friendly technology.

Brother Kham opened a restaurant, he sells traditional food there and some Thailand cuisines there. Knowing that he is really interested in being a chef, I think his dream has come true.

Kirana and Alissa work as doctors in a hospital. They work in the same hospital, they even work in the same section, surgeon. Kirana also owned a boutique. Alissa is working with her too so I think that's a sister business? Anyway, their business is really popular and has opened their branches in another country. Their boutique includes Batik as one of their products so I often visit their store too. Now, do they still fight for some childish things? Well no, but actually yes. They are still in a pair of love - hate sisters' relationships.

Maria is becoming a guitarist and soloist. She performs in cafes, from the small one until the famous one. We've told her that being that kind of soloist is unable to generate steady income. But, that's what she has been dreaming of so I don't think we can stop her from being it. Now, she sings in most events such as weddings, flower festivals and much more.

Syukri turns out to be a psychologist. He studies human behaviour and how to heal someone with mental illness. He could read someone's feelings only through their eyes. Now, I'm afraid he knows some of my secrets. How could I take Alissa's milo without being caught again? But, I mean his job really fits him because he is really sensitive to his surroundings, that he could know any even little changes.

Nguyen opened a vovinam training ground. Vovinam is a martial art originating from Vietnam. Who knows that our shy Nguyen could turn into a fierce warrior. Remain me not to make her upset. Actually she wants to be a top athlete but because she will be travelling far from home, she gave up because she felt that she wasn't ready to leave her home. That's why she finally opened her own training ground.

Anirudh is now a photographer. Besides because that is his hobby, it is also because he was offered to become a photographer in a campaign that contained self-awareness of the natural surroundings. From that campaign, he earned quite a lot of money every week. Though I usually ask him to do it for free, hehe.

Jeanitha and Aran now become teachers. Jeanitha as a social sciences teacher in the school while Aran, a multilanguage teacher at a tutoring centre. I need to learn from him, maybe one day I could bring my family overseas for a holiday. Aran has an interesting habit after he learns those languages. I've told you in the beginning that Aran will turn wild if we wake him up in the morning. If we make him angry by waking him up in the morning, he will snap us with a lot of different languages. We don't understand of course, and that's why he chooses that way.

"I don't want to hurt your feelings," he said.

Martha opened a bookstore now. Maybe not that big, but still. It's a bookstore. She just opened the bookstore so it's still not busy and not very well known. She aspires to open many branches in other cities in the future.

Marthio is growing really tall now. In fact, he's the tallest among us and even beat brother Kham height. Because of that he is much sought after by agencies to be employed as a model. Now, he is working as a fashion model and very successful in his career. And now, sister Kirana can't be overprotective to him again, since she is the shortest and Marthio is the tallest. Her face though.

So from now on, our family will live in a glorious life we have paved before.

No one will need to suffer, no one can tell us what to do, and we can be always together.

And yes, we're still living in the same house. The same house, full of memories of our struggling and suffering, happiness, sadness, warmth, cold, and love.

Streaks of rainbow colors radiate beauty along with sweet smiles of happy laughter. Be patient until the time comes.

Don't be afraid to take some risks, get out of your comfort zone and accept new challenges, because I can tell you, that all will be worth it in the end.

That's all dear diary, what I want to share. But I've been thinking lately, and it bothers me alot. Does our story really have already got happy ever after? Is this the end of everything?

Well I think that's my homework to figure out the answer.

Sincerely,

Ayolisious

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