ᵂᴬᴿᴹᵀᴴ|| Taegi

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There was a total week of silence.

Everyone was on edge.

Yoongi ended up staying with Namjoon and Jimin. They had no idea where Wonjae had gone to and when he was going to come back. Yoongi was paranoid.

He bit at his nails, they were almost nonexistent. Every time the door opened or his phone went off he would jump.

Yoongi hadn't talked to Taehyung since that day. Taehyung would always message him a good morning or a lengthy text about how his day had been and what he had been up to. Yoongi wanted to disappear.

The front door opened causing Yoongi to get out of bed and check to see who it was. He let a relieved breath when Namjoon walked through the door.

"Yoongs, I brought some food" Namjoon's voice echoed through the big apartment. Yoongi came out of his room and into the living room. Namjoon smiled and placed the food down "How have you been feeling, did you eat anything today?" Yoongi shrugged. Namjoon's heart broke looking at Yoongi, his bruises were barely fading.

Namjoon remembered walking into the hospital room and seeing Yoongi. His bestfriend destroyed. He remembered seeing his bruised cheek, his bruised arm, and his neck. He knew that when he saw Wonjae he was going to kill him, or at least put him in the hospital for a while. The worst part about it all was that Yoongi couldn't even remember anything that happened.

"Jimin said you have to eat, you'll get sick if you don't" Namjoon sighed "You're looking so thin..."

Yoongi looked away and gripped his shirt "I know" he felt so helpless.

He was so angry with himself. The type of anger that you feel when you can't lash out at anyone but yourself, the constant yelling going through your brain that you're the one who screwed up. All Yoongi could feel was anger. The worst part is that he couldn't even be mad at Wonjae, he wanted to but he just couldn't and even though he was abused and beaten by him, he still loved him.

"I'm tired" Yoongi mumbled, walking back to his room. He crawled back into bed and covered himself in his blankets. Namjoon gently knocked on the door, the bag of food in his hand.

"I don't care if you eat in here, but you need to eat" Namjoon sat on the bed, placing the food in front of Yoongi. His stomach grumbled, he looked at the food and reached for it. Yoongi took the first bite and for some reason felt like crying. He continued to eat as Namjoon just sat there and talked to him about how his day had gone until Jimin came home and joined them.

Yoongi stayed quiet the entire time, but he wasn't as anxious anymore. He was enjoying his friend's company.

He wondered constantly when his life started to go down the drain, maybe it was when he met Wonjae? Maybe it was when he was a child and his parents were constantly fighting, or when he found out he had anger issues.

Eventually everyone had gone to bed, Yoongi left alone. He grabbed his phone and saw a goodnight text from Taehyung. Yoongi took a deep breath. He felt like an asshole for completely disappearing from Taehyung. But, he couldn't handle the thought of Taehyung seeing him in his current state.

His phone dinged again.

Yoongi checked to see it was a text from Wonjae. He started to shake, his entire body went numb. He started to bite at his nails again debating whether or not to respond to him, he was confused. Yoongi threw his phone at the wall, the device shattering.

His body was cold, he felt like Wonjae was about to walk through that door at any moment and drag him back home.

Jimin opened the door in a panic, "What's wrong? what happened?" he saw Yoongi with a look of fear in his eyes.

"He... he texted me..." Yoongi whispered, his voice was shaky and weak. Jimin made his way over to Yoongi and pulled him into a hug.

Jimin stroked Yoongi's hair "He can't get near you... You're safe" he rocked them back and forth, trying to calm Yoongi's nerves. "Let's try and get some sleep yeah?" Jimin smiled, he placed a soft kiss on the top of Yoongi's head, before leaving the room. Yoongi laid down, covering himself in his covers. How could he sleep when Wonjae could show up at any moment. He was anxious, angry, and confused.

When was he allowed to breathe?

Yoongi tried to think of anything nice in his life to help him sleep. Taehyung popped up in his mind. Yoongi gave a small, shy smile at the thought of how Taehyung gently grabbed his hand.

Before he knew it, Yoongi was fast asleep.