One-Shots

Shared Smiles - (fluff)

Summary: Spencer loves Reader and Reader loves Spencer. The only problem is, they are best friends and are both too scared to admit their feelings. Spencer is afraid to get too close to Reader for fear of losing them. What happens when that line is crossed?

You and Spencer had always been close. Over your years at the BAU, the two of you became best friends. Spencer would bring you a coffee every morning, and in return, you would leave little sticky notes on his desk stating random facts you quickly found on the internet just to make him smile. When you weren't on a case, your weekends were filled with Doctor Who marathons at your place (you obviously had the better tv) and Spencer planning a "fun" activity at some museum or convention for the morning after. You were the only one on the team who was always up for whatever Spencer had planned. Even if you didn't find it half as interesting as he did, you would always have a great time because you got to spend the day with him doing what he loves with a giant smile on his face.

Even though you practically lived at each other's apartments, spending all of your days off together, when you would stay the night at the other's, there was never a question that one of you would always sleep on the couch. A few months back, when Spencer's migraines were really intense, you had told him that he could sleep in your bed with you so he could sleep more comfortably. Upon hearing your words, he looked as though you had just told him that you set all of his books on fire. He swiftly shut you down and insisted on taking the couch. He may as well have just set you on fire with how much his words wrenched your heart. That was the most pain you had ever felt and all you could do was crack a smile and wish him goodnight.

Although you would never admit it, Spencer Reid was the love of your life. Everything you did was to see that beautiful smile of his. Every time his eyes lit up or his nose scrunched, your heart would flutter, and you swore you fell deeper and deeper in love each time. You wanted nothing more than to be the source of all of his happiness, even if your love goes unrequited.

You knew Spencer didn't feel the same because every time you would try to show Spencer your affection for him physically, he would stare at you with wide eyes and jolt back. He had no problem with trading compliments and showering you with adoration, but when it came to hugging you or even a reassuring squeeze of the arm, Spencer wanted nothing to do with it.

You understood that he wasn't the biggest fan of physical touch in general, but he would hug JJ and let Derek give him a pat on the back. Despite the daggers piercing your heart every time you yearned to touch his soft skin, you reminded yourself that if this was the price you had to pay to have Spencer in your life, it was well worth it.

You had just finished up an extremely taxing case and all the team wanted was to sleep. After you assumed your usual spot on the couch next to Spencer, everyone slowly drifted off to sleep in hopes of forgetting the horrors you had witnessed for the past week. You let your eyelids fall and quickly succumbed to deep sleep. You were usually very careful not to move too much in your sleep on the plane, for fear of kicking Spencer, which you were told by your college roommate you do quite violently. However, your utter exhaustion made you unaware of your head sliding down onto Spencer's shoulder. Spencer, however, was very much aware.

His eyes shot open as he felt the weight land on his shoulder. His heart began to race as he looked over at you, with your eyelids fluttering and barely audible snores escaping your mouth. Your mouth.... "No", Spencer thought to himself. He desperately wanted to pull away from you but he couldn't stop staring at your lips and thinking how perfectly they would fit on his. Spencer was no stranger to the fact that you would never think of him as more than a friend. He knew he couldn't live up to the strong, handsome men you dated in the past. He knew he couldn't let himself get too close to you, because he knew he would never be able to let you go. He knew he couldn't let himself love you because your rejection would break him and he couldn't lose you. So he knew he had to keep his distance.