The Nightmare To Be True

True Colors

WARNING: Contains Swearing, Hateful words, and Self-destruction.

SNAP! SNAP! POP! The father froze in place from hearing the deafening noises from behind him. As he slowly turned around he was petrified to see something coming towards him while pushing trees down. THUD! CRACK! Dead trees fell rapidly one by one while that thing still came towards him. The man was in shock at what was going on. It was then he saw a large claw wrap its claws around a tree and effortlessly rip that tree out of the ground. Once again, it revealed itself. Its eyes were no longer yellow, they were now a glowing dark purple. She bared her cone-shaped teeth. It let out a soft growl before bellowing in anger.

"No no." He said with a whisper before stepping back a few steps.

"Look what you fucking did to my vessel!" From behind my weaker vessel trotted by my side. She was wounded but numb. She can't feel pain and neither can I. Her skull was bashed opened, blood and a clear liquid poured out of her wound, and one of her eyes was hanging out of the eye socket. I'm tired of this old man. I'm tired of being WEAK! I'M TIRED OF BEING THREATENED! I'M NO LONGER AFRAID.

"But that's impossible I-I killed that thing." It was amazing how a dog could survive that. He even made sure it was dead. The dog just gave him a large toothy grin in response. Then it pawed the puddle of its own blood and it changed from red to a deep purple. From that puddle emerged a hand, then a head peering out. It was the daughter or so it was. She lifted herself out, and she looked at her wounded self and frowned.

"So he hurt you too?" I sighed and frowned even more. "Why do you keep hurting us?! What have we done?" I whined. The silence was his reply. He didn't know what to say to her.

"..What do you mean?" Her stare at him turned into a death glare as she hissed and raised her voice.

"You think I don't remember those times you would beat me and my sisters?!" The man's heart rate increased a little, how could she even remember that from years ago? Either way, he knew how to deceive his child.

"It was your mother who would hit you many times, she let out her anger on you, and I told you she was a witch yet you never listened." He responded. Lulu's heart ached as her father lied to her right in front of her face. The worst is that he lied and blamed it on her mother. Her mother took care of her and her sisters, worked hours and hours just to feed them, and yet he was never there but still lied. She was silent and only put her head down. Once again, another moment of feeling weak. All her life she was the weak one but her mother was there to defend her. This time she will defend her mother. The Beast and smaller monster looked at each other as they felt their heart fill with rage. These two beings lacked hearts in their own bodies but they did share the heart of the girl. Only the wild dog could feel the sad and angry emotions, whereas the beast could only feel anger and the destruction it brings.

I started feeling those tears that held back the anger but I couldn't hold it in any longer. My pictus vessel shared the same tears and snarled. The tears kept falling as my rage increased and decreased. I have never talked back to my father before. I knew if I did, I would just get beaten but this feeling in me is not fear. It was my true colors.

"YOU FUCKING LIAR! MOMMY SUFFERED FOR SO MANY YEARS JUST TO GIVE ME AND MY SISTERS A HAPPY LIFE! WHERE WERE YOU? YOU LET YOUR FUCKING FRIEND TOUCH THEM! YOU THREW MY SISTER AWAY! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!! I fell to my knees and sobbed uncontrollably. I always thought why we were a broken family and I never knew it was because of you until now. " I never felt the pains they felt but I also felt my own pain. I always wondered why my friends had fathers that cared about them and were there for them but not us. I thought hiding my sadness in journals would make it go away. BUT IT ALWAYS FUCKING CAME BACK! Every time I had those thoughts I told myself it would get better, but nothing got better. I wondered if I could tell maybe you or mommy but I know mommy would just be sad, and you wouldn't even care or comfort me. I lifted my arms and looked at them with shame and misery written on my face. "I will never forget the tool I used to cut these arms. I will NEVER forget the taste or feeling of hydrogen peroxide going down my throat, and waiting for the touch of the grim reaper. I- won't.." My voice let out anger and pain. I was not only a monster but a sad one.

"I never knew." He whispered. He felt some guilt eating him away as he heard the sobs of his daughter.

"You were the fucking cause of this, aren't you? You are the one who let your friend break this family even more. You were never there for us..you...RUINED EVERYTHING! YOU NEVER CARED ABOUT US FROM THE START! YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING! YOU MADE MY MOM FUCKING SUFFER! YOU DON'T CARE! YOU NEVER FUCKING DID I FUCKING HATE YOU!! I WISH YOU NEVER FUCKING BORN THEN WE ALL WOULDN'T SUFFER!!" I haven't cried like this before. So many tears ran down my cheeks I already knew my eyes were red from all of this. I gasped for breath a few times before crying more. The dog that was right next to me already had tears rolling down her face. The other beast just stared at my father with a look of insanity and anger. I finally stopped crying, and my vision was no longer blinded by tears. My cheeks had dried up and left the marks of where the tears fell. Numbness and anger were the only things I felt. My face grew cold and I sighed. My father did not speak but I felt more guilt coming from him. I lifted up my hand like a zombie and slowly pointed at the old man. "It is now your turn to rest next to your name written in blood." As I said that the Beast and Monster stepped forward as their eyes glowed the same bright purple and exposed their yellow, toothy, wide grins. 

(Enjoy~ Munchkin)