Stories aren't always happy

Calm! Calm! Calm!

Tw: Cutt1ng, Su1c1d3
Cw: Mention of littlespace

It was 3:47am and I was just on my phone watching random shit and even while I was distracted I still had this thought in the back of my mind, And I had a voice telling me to do it. . .

"Cut your wrists"

Was what the voices kept saying and it got louder and louder until..

I finally gave into it

I grabbed my phone just in case I cut to deep and start bleeding out [if you know what I mean you know]

I walk upstairs to the kitchen to grab a knife; luckily my grandfather was asleep

I opened a drawer in the kitchen and I look to find a good knife to use

I seen a pink knife with a cover for the blade; I grab the knife I found and hide it in my pant leg
And I go to the washroom close the door and lock it,

I sit on the washroom floor and get out the knife from my pant leg

Definitely not explaining this part so skip

As the blade was on my forearm i started shaking and as I glided the blade across my forearm in a soft way where I wouldn't get cut I drop the knife and hold my head in my hands legit scared
And I put the blade cover back on, I get up and walk to the sink and wash the knife because I didn't want to risk it

I shove the knife back into my pant leg and I unlock the door and open it quietly and walk upstairs to put the knife back still aggressively shaking.

"Calm down! Calm down!"
"Everything is alright, your gonna be alright"

I say to myself as quiet as possible to reassure myself but the voices wouldn't leave me alone,

"YOUR SUCH AN IDIOT WHY DIDN'T YOU DRAW BLOOD"

"I knew you were to weak to go through with this"

I bang my head on the floor pretty much about to have an anxiety attack right here and then,

I thought about a lot of things that might calm me down

Food?   No we can't eat

Text hope [My very best friend]  Can't he's pretty annoyed of me or thinks I'm streaming

Call mother it's basically 4:17am she won't pick up

Call father?  No he's ignoring me

Little space  that works

I get up from the ground my vision blurry, I was walk over to my bed and I get out a small box with a paci, a bottle, a pastel floofy blanket and a stuffie I taken the bottle and go it my little mini fridge in my room where I keep the ingredients for angel milk

I make myself angel milk and I grab the other items in the small box

No more talkin' about my headspace now ;w;

I decided to go to sleep since angel milk makes me tired.
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This is true I did save myself from doing something stupid.

Remember the stars will listen

-The kid in the stars