November 13,2015
Dear Journal,
Why am I here? Was I made only to suffer. The world took my mom from me and I can't even call my dad a father although I can understand his sadness. I am going through the same thing. This world has many happy people, why can't I be one of them? Did the universe just pick me or was it like a lottery. All i know is that I wish I was only dreaming. All this pain must be imaginary, no one would make someone go through this. I pinch myself every time I think something can't be actually happening. So you can imagine that I pinch myself everyday since in my school, things suck. My past attempts have somehow floated their way onto the computers and phones of the students at my new school. This is my third school. I don't think my dad can afford to move anymore. He had a great paying job, but after mom died he gambles and drinks a lot. He will come home from work and go straight to the computer to play online poker. The closest thing we had to a conversation was a text message that red "HB" on my birthday. He couldn't even spell my name. I know he's grieving but I am too. in this time we should be confronting each other but instead we tend to avoid each other. I'm not sure why, but when mom first died we went to a psychiatrist to help our situation. My dad told the lady, Dr.Langhost that every time he saw my face he was reminded of mom. The visits to Dr.Langhost came to a halt because we found out she was a scam artist that fooled people into paying money for psychiatric help. That's also part of the reason we are not financially stable. Man do i have bad luck, I'm not really superstitious but I have failed to see anything good happen in my life, after my mom died. My whole world was turned upside down and I guess, so did my luck. To sum up my point what I'm saying is I need something to give me a reason to live, because right now I don't see the point in living. Well, enough of me, I have an English assignment due and I need to get started. Until next time Journal.
P.S. : If I fail English my dad will force me to dropout of school and get a job. I can't have that happen, my education is one of the only things I have left.
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