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|Lei's pov |

I have a crush on someone, his name is Park Sunghoon. yes, he's my friend and classmate. I wish he could be my best friend to be more closer to him. But I think he always thinks of me as his noona because I'm one of the girls that he talks to, and tells his secrets. More like her older sister, We were born on the same year, but he was born late on that year. It's really funny, right? Me dreaming someday he'll like me but how??? I'm not beautiful, I'm fat and tall. More like a giant, How can he like me, right??

Thoughts on my head were running, making me crazy. I want to confess to him on that day, and then I realized that I'm not to myself at that time. He's the heartthrob in our class, the one who's always top 1, while I'm the top 2 and he's an athlete. Cool, right? I can't stop staring at him during class. Actually, one of our subjects we're seatmates. I feel so happy and nervous yessss!!! I can't even manage to have eye contact with him, he's so handsome and cute at the same time.

He hates whenever there's a girl who confessed to him, he really hates it so much. So I just keep it to myself that how much I like him. He's really close to me but sometimes he ignores me. He told me his crush and I never told mine, because it's him. I guess no one really likes me, no one has a crush on me, even my crush doesn't like me. But it's OK, I'm used to it.

I have a younger sister, Shin Lia. She's so pretty, she's slim and a good dancer. Our age gap is 3 years. Many people always compare me to her. They said, That I'm fat, while Lia is a beautiful and talented dancer. Whenever I heard those sentences, I felt jealous. Me looking in the mirror, looking at how fat I am. I do lose my confidence, even friends I don't have true friends. They're just forcing themselves to be friends with me because they need help with their studies.

I agree that I'm good when it comes to studies and my grades are really good. I think that's me.,Yeah studying. Even the kids thought when we went to the park, they don't want me because I'm fat, They want Lia. whenever my parents ask me if I'm OK, or if there's a problem. I tell them there's nothing to worry about, I'm fine. But deep inside I'm like a lost person crying hardly so that someone can hear me.

My parents always give me their enough love so that I can't feel envious towards my sister but we can't avoid that. it's permanently written inside my heart that I will never be enough like my sister. I love my sister so much, but sometimes it hurts whenever she makes me feel uncomfortable. My relatives like her, Every person that we will saw, all attention is on her. But enough with my sister I'm happy that people love her, and she doesn't experience just like what's happening with me.

Park Sunghoon, it's you the one that i have a crush on. I thought you like me too, but it's only my thoughts. I hope you can feel how much I like you, as I hope to  continue on liking you...

About my personality, they told me that I'm cold, the same as Sunghoon. I like to hide secrets by myself. I hide my talents, I sing my dad is a singer btw, I play instruments but the guitar is my favorite. They don't know that I'm good at that kinds of things even my family, they think, they  buy me things just for fun but they don't realized that I'm really good at it. I'm really afraid to be judged by others.Especially, when the first time that you will see me, I tell you. You will avoid me. So I'm just on my own, carrying these burdens by myself and overcome them on my own. How hard it is to be me. You're blessed because you're beautiful and slim too. Many guys will like you, and Me, I'll never be you... Just me, SHIN LEI...

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Hello guys it's me your Authornim 🤍🤍🤍 hope you guys like this... It's just only the intro of this fan fiction. Pls vote;)) thank you so much, ILY all!!!!!
-Authornim🤍