Diary of Dreams

Diary After Deadline - Day 1 & 2 | 9-25-2015/9-26-2015

#1

Another dream of her...

It seems like she's getting into my dreams for all the times we spent together, even if it was mostly on the internet...

This dream was due to a link between us two... It's probably for how much I care for her...

I don't know... I just miss her...

    -HJ

#2

As I stood there, I felt aching inside me. It was partly of hunger, but mostly of the segregation between us two. As I stand out in the cold & dreary weather, I feel cold & dead inside & outside. Luckily, I believe she won't harm herself, so I'm not aching for her even more.

    -HJ

#3

At 1st period, it seemed that I didn't have a single problem at all, even if I'm not motivated enough...

I guess it's the outside part of me hiding my unmotivation & inner feelings... So then I won't be able to alert anyone about me being all bummed out, & it is dang sure great at hiding how I really am...

    -HJ

#4

I almost forgot that I still have a race to put up with. I'm probably going to lose, since I am still in that unmotivated state that I'm in...

Hopefully, my feelings don't affect my performance...

I really miss her... It kills me to think about her harming herself... If this separation doesn't end soon, there's gonna be trouble going on...

    -HJ

#5

Dang, my outside is really great at hiding how I really feel inside. I really don't want anyone to know how I actually feel like, it's just gonna get me to the center of attention, which means more trouble between me & adults telling me to worry 'bout myself.

    -HJ

#6

And so it seems that my unmotivation mae me lose the race... But at least I was able to start doing the open art class, it's gonna start next week.

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I just can't get my mind off of her... I believe it's just the fact that she was the first person to understand how I felt, including the fact that we are so much alike, despite our few differences...

    -HJ

#7

At the bus stop, it's really cold & that fits in well with the foggy environment. I keep having this feeling that someone's watching me behind the fog. I see just a guy or a woman there, either one, the guy had a somewhat visible hair through the fog, & the woman had long hair & she seemed to have a huge tail sticking up. Possibly a cosplayer or familiar people.

    -HJ

#8

I've gone tired all of the sudden, I don't know why, I've also even gone quiet, even more independent in school. I guess that I've gone needy...

I just can't focus as much as I used to... Nobody still can't see me behind my face, but I believe that my expressions are starting to show up, my eyes hurt... My back hurts along with my neck... My heart hurts...

    -HJ

#9

My heart aches... I feel so empty... I need this separation to end REALLY SOON!  I can't take it! If it doesn't end, I'm just gonna go crazy! I've lost enough sanity! Heck...

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It's already begun again...

#10

I'm bored... I have nothing else to do. It kinda reminds me... The girls seemed more open to me now, mostly the spitfire one, I'mnotgonnasaynamesbecauseI'dgetintroubleforthat... And I seem to be getting my work done now...

#11

Well, I lost the race again... Although, she had a head start before me.

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Man, I've grown even tired...

#12

I've been getting even more forgetful about things now...