Verse 1-NX
Yo yo suicide takin ones knife i almost commited it almost took my life. People messing up yeah i'm fessing up. Hold up... wait a second i did this before i became a legend losing control before i was on a roll yall act like you didn't know i gave myself the bullet hole. You say you lost someone well now you know how i'm not the only one. First you were my friend then wanted it to end. Sorry i got it already and bam i shot it. I said I wanted to be away from you. You keep coming back through.
Chorus-NX (background chorus)
Never really wanted to, but you pushed me - to - (but you pushed me -to!),I'm still here so I guess the relief kicked in ,its just the suicide relief don't you think it was cuz of u.Cuz its just the suicide relief.
Verse 2-NX
By the way I never wanted to stay. I wanted to die away. I lose everyone I love. The great's got shot from above. If i'm gon die ima die from my own hand. Thought i had to grow up cuz you never show up. Losin part of my life every time I listen to the lies. Now I kinda wanna be the one that dies. I hate being the one who gets shot with the emotion gun. I want to commit suicide. I just wanna join death on the ride. I don't care if i live on the inside. Being the outcast never lasts. I'm the target so shoot the blasts.Me being the one who dies isn't the prize that's what i now realize.
Verse 3 - NX
Aye Aye I never wanted to die anyway. Just wanted you to go away. Lost in the pain never made the pain go away. Death seemed like the only path. Everyone wishin id take their wrath. f*cking death itself wanted to make me its son at least that's what it felt like. My life used to be a F*cking mess up
Chorus-NX (background chorus) - For 2nd round just record first round and put it at the end of verse 3
Never really wanted to, but you pushed me - to - (but you pushed me -to!),I'm still here so I guess the relief kicked in ,its just the suicide relief don't you think it was cuz of u.Cuz its just the suicide relief.Get up outta my face wit that na,na,na,na (repeats with scratch noises in the back)
Verse 4- NX
They be messin it up, I keep cuttin it up. Self isolation is my own f*ckin vacation I'm still here so I guess the relief kicked in, so I guess i let my enemies win ,again, I feel like I ain't got nothin in this world to live for, but I gotta find sum to live up to ,people always expectin perfection from me , but all they gonna get is a great big fail anatomy. Don't you ever speak about me or my dead mother,you respect me respect her like no otha, word to my brotha. bruh don't leave me hanging or the earth will be shaking. Losing others makes me keep breakin down. Give me the death stare cuz Im crazy as fuck. Kill my family cuz i dont really give a fuck.Nothing hurts me anymore. Ive totaled my life if i dont got long to be alive fuck it im not alright. dont fuckin try to fight ill try with all my might to fuckin be alright but im not.
Chorus- NX (background chorus)x2
Never really wanted to, but you pushed me - to - (but you pushed me -to!),I'm still here so I guess the relief kicked in ,its just the suicide relief don't you think it was cuz of u.Cuz its just the suicide relief.Get up outta my face wit that na,na,na,na (repeats with scratch noises in the back)
Background music- NX
Yeah. NX out
