Why me?

FYI : I hate you

Why did you have to look at me like that?..it's like you don't know what you do to me.
In the distance I hear his girlfriend..Cleo the classic batshit crazy, bimbo cheerleader every guy wants for some reason "GOOO ALEC..THAT'S MY BOYFRIEND LADIES!" she yells with her performative enthusiasm ...even though she's only here because of what people would say about her not going to his lacrosse games..rumors would start and not the type that she's usually involved in spreading.. Alec winks at her, my heart whimpers as he does.. it hurts "I'm over this" I whispered to my best friend, MG— (short for Mordecai Gregory Bartholomew... he's Jewish)  "you shouldn't let him or Cleo get in your head like that, I don't know why you're still wasting your time with him " I challenged him with my response even though I knew he was right, ''right, get over him like you're over Tara'' he rolls his eyes and plays it off with an exasperated sigh, we stare at eachother and laugh at what felt like forever, this feels good... MG is incredibly smart, it hurts. I suck up my pride for another hour and a half of the game... I made it through without pussying out like I always do. MG and I start our walk home--"Are you ever going to just talk to him, even though I think you could do a lot better than him" MG doesnt have a filter when he thinks something he says it... that's what I love and hate about him he's one of the few people in my life that don't lie to me. ''how about we stop talking about alec, ok what about you and your mom?'' MG's family life very complicated.. his mom is a bipolar, in and out stripper drug addict, and his dad is in prison charged with aggravated assault, rape, tax fraud, and battery. He was sentenced to at least 25 years in prison and psych ward supervision. Currently MG temporarily lives with me, we're his foster family at the moment, his mom is getting evaluated to test if she is financially and mentally fit to handle a 16 year old --MG ''I can't wait to be 18 and not deal with this crap anymore, if wasn't for a certain group of people in my life I would not be here today, I don't think I would've been strong enough to live.'' I stare at him contently his face is unreadable I grab his hand and rub it slowly.. his face gets tense and red, he pulls his arm away gently and changes the subject ''so.. it is still 5pm and i'm getting an appetite for frenzy's diner.'' Frenzy's is our go to hangout spot with the rest of our  group of friends, So we make our pitstop at frenzy's, then my eyes wander to Alec, he's here..and there's person on his right arm...Cleo she's staring at him, caressing his hair and whispering sweet nothings, MG notices my staring and purposely chooses the booth closest to them, I hissed at him ''what the hell are you doing?!'' he grins, we order our food and for a split second alec turns to me... he's staring and just like that butterflies bubble in my stomach, Cleo notices and squeezes his arm aggressively then gives me a dirty stare, squaring me up.. then she chuckles and flips her head back to her table— I am officially uncomfortable, so I get up to leave but then Cleo ''drops'' her slushie right in front of me (on purpose)  all . my . shit . is . wet . ''oh I'm sorry wow! I am sooo clumsy'' my head goes empty and I'm fighting back tears, MG interjects "how does it feel for nobody to actually like you, the people around you are terrified of you even your fucking pampas ass boy toy!" Alec interrupts "who the hell are you?!" he gets in his face squaring him up, but then Alec turns to me, calms down and grabs towels and paper towels "listen.. I'm sorry about my girlfriend, she can be overly possessive sometimes." his voice like crisp gold in my ear..he's helping me wipe down my dress, Alec murmured "I'm Alec, oh! I didn't catch your name?" little does he know i've known that name since we've been in grade school... to myself i've known you all my life and you never noticed me, I hesitated but replied "my name is leía, is your girlfriend Cleo always like that?" we chuckled loudly, I love this.. until he replies "Cleo is a piece of work but I think I love her." My heart is in wrapped in knots as he says that, lord why me!? Cleo interrupted "COME ONNN, Alec she's not a baby she can clean herself up! We have to leave right NOW!" She dragged him away, he follows her then turns to look at me, he's staring. MG is STILL arguing with the rest of the football team, I pull him outside then yell "You know this shit is YOUR fault RIGHT!? when I tell you I don't WANT to do something out of my comfort zone you always try to change that, why did you have to pick that booth!" MG looks at me, he's not arguing back I keep yelling "and then on top of that I don't think you did this shit for me it was for you, your ego to stand up to the football team that's why you did it, because it was all for me when that shit got poured all over me you would've come to my aid to help me...but you didn't." I storm off fighting back tears I hate when we fight, but he was out of line on this one, what happened with me and alec is still swimming in my head, I can't wait for tomorrow...

Leía

MG

Alec

Cleo