A Piece of My Heart (Poetry)

Im not over it.

I say I'm over it, I'm over us, I'm over everything, but I still find myself crying on my pillow who's tired of being there for me every night and having me shed tears on it. It's sad, pathetic, disappointing how much one person can mean to me... But them having no clue and how much they effect me. They don't know how I feel, they don't know the nights I spend praying to god ill have a chance, but even god is tired of hearing the same prayers every night. It's been proven that it just wasn't meant to be, but my heart just won't accept it. It's been broken so many times before but when I thought I finally found the one, it just got proven wrong and left abandoned, sad, bleeding with out anything to call its own. It's just stupid how much one person causes you so much pain and such loss of sleep when they sleep in their bed, sound and beautifully asleep. I'm not good with emotions, but I know with out you, I'll be miserable and I guess I'll always be miserable. I'll just have to learn to live with it.