AFTER i have you back

Chapter four - Hardin's POV

Fucking shit! Why am I so stupid? I shouldn't have said that. Is she sad? Or mad at me? Does she cry? God, I wish I could see her face.

»You are so stupid, Scott! Why did you wrote that?« After I saw that she read my message I told it Cloe.

»I don't fucking know. I am so stupid. I'm calling Landon.«

I go in my room, close the door and call him. After a few seconds I hear his voice.

»Hardin?«

»Can I talk to her?«, I ask with panic in my voice.

»Of course.....not! Are you dumb? You're an selfish asshole. I like you  Hardin. It sounds weird and stupid but you're really important. But I won't let you hurt Tessa like that and make her feel guilty! She was always considerate of your feelings. She always put you first and that's what you have to say to her? Of course it is. You only care about yours-«, I interrupt him mad.

»THAT'S NOT FUCKING TRUE! I CARE ABOUT HER AND HER FEELINGS. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE HER AND I WANT TO SAY HER THAT I AM SORRY. SO GIVE HER YOU PHONE!«

»See? That's the problem. You always say you're sorry. Maybe it's true but you always say that. She is broken Hardin. If you really care about her, you would show her how SORRY you are. Saying sorry doesn't fix the problem. So no. I don't give her my phone!«

He hangs up. Fuck! He is right. How could I say her, that I am sorry?

You stupid idiot!

I can call her! I don't need Landon's help.

I call her. I wait, and wait but then she refuses. I can't blame her. I am  a dick. And I don't deserver her.

But then I get a message. I hope it's Tessa.

"Hey Hardin. I know you're mad at me and you hate me. That's why we broke up - you can meet new girls or a girl. Maybe you fuck Molly or even Steph. I don't care. You're a single man and you can do whatever you want to do. It's not my business. But if you really do that: It really means that I loved (love) you more. But I don't care. It's the past. I just want to say that I still love you and I really hope you find someone you can love more than anything.

Have a good life,
Tessa <3

That's it. We're official over in her life. And she really thinks, I would fuck Steph or Molly. I can't blame her. It's my fault. I leave her alone - until I have an idea how I can show her that she can trust me again.

A few hours later I'm sitting on my couch and watch friends. Just because it reminds me of her.

»Why the fuck are you watching friends? This show is bullshit«, I hear Miles' voice and roll my eyes.

»Shut up man.«

»Chill. You really need sex.«

»No, I don't.«

He looks at me and raises his eyebrow.

»Dude, I know what you're feeling. You fell in love with a stupid and useless bitch and then she left you.«

»Firstly: Tessa is not a stupid and useless bitch!«

»Whatever. Cloe and I are going in a club. Do you want to come with us?«

»No«, I say.

»Come on, Hardin. Don't be stubborn«, Cloe says and comes to me.

»I said no!«

»Whatever. See you later«, she sighs and then they go.

A few minutes later I get a message.

"Hey handsome ;)"

What the fuck? Who's that?

"Who the fuck are you?!"

"Ouch. It's me. Kylie"

"I don't know a Kylie"

"We fucked a lot in London ;)"

"Ok. What do you want?"

I'm getting annoyed. What the fuck does this bitch want?

"You. I heard you're an famous author. I love to fuck famous people."

"Well, I don't wanna fuck you. So fuck off"

"Why?"

"None of your business. Fuck off"

"You will regret this :)"

I block her and throw my phone on the couch.

You will regret this. How pathetic.

I decide to go to my laptop and read all my messages. There are over 300!

After two hours I get bored so I stand up and unblock Kylie.

"Hey, wanna met? I could drive to U ;)"

"Don't worry. I'm in chicago right know. Wanna met in a hotel room?"

"With pleasure"

I stand up and drive to the hotel. I see her and go out. She smirks and comes to me.

And then we go in.