Never had a chance~dabi x reader

Chapter 8

A/N im haveing a bit of whriters block so i deeply apologize for the huge time gap inbetween chapters :p

Dabis Pov:
Y/n....its y/n, why dose she make me feel this way, i want to keep holding her forever, she makes me feel wanted like no one has before- fuck i c- i cant be with her im only gunna end up hurting her. . . I need to distract myself from her shes just a fuxk toy nothing else....nothing... shes so warm her skin feels nice... i wanna keep holding her she feels so hood wrapped against me it feels hot... so hot, sweat drips down my face as i roll my eyes back trying to suppress my quirk fuck fuck fuck i need to get away from her. I unwrapp her hastly from my body and leap off the bed stumbling as my quirk activates swollowing my body in blue fames before flashing out, dammit. Shes like a drug i cant stop looking at her, being around her, smelling her warm vanilla scent , she swarmed in my head all day my eyes hazzed and she would apear...am- am i in love with y/n?
NO, no i am not, im delusional, she could do so much better then me i dont deserve to like her god i need to stop thinking about her, i need a distraction.
I stood up wobbling a bit, y/n was surprisingly.. still sleeping wtf.
I slipped on a black t-shirt and some sweatpants and opened the door tooking one last look at her before slamming shut the door to my room, ready to go fuck some random.

Y/Ns pov:
I wake up to a door slamming shut... memories swarm my head makeing me dizzy, heat rising on my cheeks. Where was dabi? Hm i guess he must've woke up early...
Or mabey he just hates you and regret whag he did
Great -,- the voices are back ive been dealing with them for awhile now they haven't been to bad like somedays they would be your hair dosent look good or mabey even something like change your outfit yoh look fat so they haven't been that bad but that one kinda hurt-
I wonder why they are back to that way, mabey the voices are right
... no, he- he probably just went on a mission or something... yeah.
I snap out of my little trance and unravel myself throwing on my clothes from last night, memories are still flushing in my head and i cant keep from thinking.... why?
I just dont understand why dabi would do that without a reason, mabey he just needed to distract himself... You're  just a fuck toy you will NEVER  get with him, you are nothing to him. Negative thoughts cloud my head as my expression suddenly glares gloomieness, although my train of thought was interrupted as i bump into a familiar scent, it was velvet like and sweet with a pinch of sinister blood smell, i look up to see the one and only toga beaming at me.

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