My Life (JC Caylen)([#WATTYS2015])

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I open my eyes to see pure white. Once my eyes adjust, I realize I am in a white room, with white benches along the walls, but other then that completely empty. I walk over to one of the benches and sit down. I hold my hands in my lap, trying to figure out where I am. I hang my head to see the mirror floor. I am wearing all white and I look like hell. I close my eyes, thinking of where I could be.

*FLASHBACK*
I slice my wrist, watching the droplets of blood take over my arm. I watch the blood pour onto the floor, falling over and everything turning black.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
"Am I dead?" I ask myself out loud. "No, but you're close" I hear a familiar voice beside me say. I look up "Kian" I say, hugging him. "I missed you so much I love you" I am crying now. "Go back. While you can. I didn't go back. I should've. But I didn't. I love you too. Please do this for me. I'm watching over you. And I got all your texts too" he says, laughing at the last part. I smile slightly. "Why didn't you come back?" I ask him. "I don't know Jc. I didn't want to forget. I didn't want to be a bad boyfriend who forgot we were dating. I didn't want anyone to get there before you and tell me bad about you to make me hate you. I wish I did go back. I love you so so much, I really do. The feeling of butterflies in my stomach when you touch me, the way I smile when I see you. I am crazy in love with you Jc Caylen." he says, kissing me slightly. "I love you Kian. I miss you. I don't want to go back. I want to stay with you" I answer him. I kiss him again, but this time he pulls away. "You won't be with me. You'll be in this room. Forever. I will only be able to see you once a month. For 24 hours. I love you and I want to see you every day. Let me watch over you. I sleep with you every night. I cuddle you when you do your job. I was with you when Connor did that to you. He loves you too you know. Not Connor, He just has anger issues and hasn't refilled his medications, but someone else. Go back Jc. For me" I sigh. "No. I want to be dead" I state. "Jc. I love you" Kian says as he begins to vanish. "I'll see you next month." He says as I tart to hear a steady beeping. I open my eyes. I'm in a hospital gown, and Sam is sitting next to me, holding my hand. "S-sam" I stutter out, but it's hard because of how dry my mouth is. "Jc! You are awake oh thank gosh I though I lost you!" he shouts, kissing me. I kiss him back, feeling sparks. Sam pulls away, and starts pressing the nurse button like crazy. I laugh slightly at this, as a nurse walks in and sees me. She gasps and smiles brightly at me. She walks over and starts feeling my heart beat. "Hunny you were out for almost a month. I was doing every thing I could to keep that crazy doctor from pulling the plug and darling I sure am glad I did. I'm nurse Penny by the way, so how are you feeling?" I smile at her greeting and try to say"Fine" but my voice comes out raspy. "Hold in hunny I'll get you some water quick as a bee" she says, walking off. "I've been dealing with her for nearly a whole month. But she's sweet." Sam explains. I nod my head. "Jc, I like you a lot." Sam says as the nurse comes back with a glass of water. I take a sip and say thank you. She nods and walks out. "I like you too Sam, but you have Trevor and I have Connor" I explain. He nods. "Trevor doesn't need to know and Connor doesn't like you. He hasn't been here once, and let's face it, we both know how you got all those hickeys." I bite my lip embarrassed "how'd you know?" the nurse asked me if I left a trail of hickeys down your stomach and I asked her to show me. It's obviously Connor and he's using you for sex." Sam explains. "Trust me I know" he says. I nod. "You're right. I'll break up with him." Sam smiles and rests his head on me. "I'm sorry" I say. "For what?" Sam asks me. "All of this. Putting you through my shit. Making your best friend die." I say. "Jc it's not your fault Kian died." Sam says, kissing my cheek. I nod again. Nurse penny comes back in "Alright Lovey. You can go now. I just need your address and your parents name." She says. "I don't have parents" I explain. "Oh well then honey let me go talk to the doctor. And here's your clothes" she says handing me a plastic bag. I stand up to get changed in the bathroom. "Right here's fine" Sam smirks. I laugh at his comment and pull on my pants, then I take off the gown and pull on Kian's "Where's Waldo" shirt. I feel Sam hug my waist. "Just friends right?" he asks. "Whit benefits?" I add on "yup" he says, kissing my cheek. A second later, a man comes in. "Hi Jc, I am doctor Paul, and it is my understanding that you are ready to leave, but you have no legal guardians?" I nod and he writes something down on a clipboard. "Alright. I'm going to have Nurse Penny escort you to the adoption center in two hours. Okay?" He asks. I nod my head. He walks out. I sigh loudly. Sam kisses me,trying to lighten the mood. I tap his thigh, and he jumps up, wrapping his legs around me. I smile into the kiss and kick the door shut with my foot. I lay him down on the bed and kiss him passionately. I soon find myself muffling my moans as Sam wraps his hands around my length. He does it the same way Kian did. I feel his lips on me, darting around, just like Kian. I feels myself coming closer, and I leak into Sam's mouth. I giggle and I pull on my pants and Sam lays next to me. I knell down, siting Sam down in the bed. I pull his pants down and slide his length into my mouth. I stare up at him innocently and run my tongue around slowly. He reaches over and grabs a pillow to muffle his moans as well. There is soon a salty liquid in my mouth and sam lays down on the bed. "oh god Jc" Sam whines as I cuddle into him. I smile as Nurse Penny walks in. "Hey boys, Jc you ready to go honey?" I nod. Can we just stop and get my stuff?" I ask. She nods and we walk out of the hospital. I walk next to Sam, but not touching him. I get in the back of Nurse Penny's car, as Sam walks to his. "okay where to?" she asks. I give her instructions to my house, and I quickly run inside grabbing all my stuff. I walk back outside with all my bags and get back in the car. I sigh as. I sit down and pull out my phone. I see I have 35 missed calls from Sam and Trevor. I look at the date. It's nearly 2 months since I last checked my phone. Oh my gosh. I bite my lip and read the texts I've received. Mostly Sam and Trevor asking where I went or if I wanted to hang out, why they haven't heard from me. I listen to the voicemails. same thing. I sigh. Not one from Connor. We pull up to the adoption center again. I walk inside, thanking Nurse Penny quickly and giving her a hug. Sigh as I see the all to familiar layout. I sigh as I sign in and walk up to Ricky and my room. I open the door to see Ricky laying there playing on his phone. Ricky looks up and runs over to hug me. "I'm sorry I overreacted. I still love you. Please forgive me." Ricky begs. I hug him back and sit in the bed. "I don't know Ricky" I say, kissing him. "I think I can" I say. He smiles and kisses me. "Will you be my boyfriend, again?" Ricky asks. I smile and nod. "Yes" I kiss him again, finally happy again. Ricky and I spend the rest of the day cuddling and talking. I hear my phone vibrate and pick it up. It's a text from Trevor. "
T- Hey you okay? Sam just told me you woke up.
J- Yeah. I'll text you later though I'm busy right now
T- Okay ttyl
*End if Convo*
"Wanna watch a movie?" I ask, it's already about 9:30 pm and I'm really tired. Ricky nods and turns on the TV. We decide to watch Pitch Perfect. I slowly drift asleep after a while.
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A/N
Wow I spent like 5 hours in my room writing this. I wrote the last chapter a while ago and forgot to upload it. Sorry!! But we have over 1K reads!!!!! How amazing is that?!
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