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I'm sorry for not updating so often but I'm planning on another fan fiction.
Btw, what's your comfort Sarah character?________________________
Her mouth neared mine. I could feel her breath against my lips. I felt like I was in trance. What would I give to feel her soft lips against mine. I felt her hand on my knee and she closed her eyes, moving closer to me. She wanted to cup my cheek but I jumped back and stood up.
No what am I doing here?! I'm so sick... I can't do this... It's a f*cking disease!She was shocked and stood up too.
"y/n I shouldn't-" She started, wanting to touch my arm but I went two steps away from her. I went out of the living room, almost running to the front door. As I wanted to take my coat and wanted to leave, I heard the sweet sound of her voice again. "Please don't leave me her-" At the last word, her voice broke and I stopped. I just stood there with my back towards her.As I could hear her footsteps on the wood floor, I turned around, finally facing her. She tried to hold back her tears and I tried to control myself, not wanting or trying to kiss her again. She walked towards me, torturing slowly. I watched every move she made.
She stopped when there was no more space between us. I took a deep breath. She cupped my cheek with one hand and I let it happen and couldn't deny how much I enjoyed her touch. I swallowed and didn't know what to do.
"Please don't go." She said with a slight shaky breath. "I- People like us-" I said, trying to hide the mix of every emotion inside me. "y/n, just because we get hate from society doesn't mean we have to stop ourselves from being happy and being with the person we want to be with." She said and her voice calmed me a bit.
She wrapped her arms around my waist, noticing how hard it was for me to not kiss her. "Just kiss me." She whispered against my lips and I closed my eyes.
I couldn't control myself anymore. I couldn't stop myself from being close to the person I love. I brushed my lips against hers and we kissed. I never felt more alive before. She deepened the kiss and I enjoyed every second of it. After a few moments we pulled away for some air.
She looked me in the eye and hugged me tighter as if afraid I would run away. I kissed her again, wanting to feel her warmth. It just felt so good. It always feels good, when it's wrong, doesn't it?
We made out a little longer but then, I had to pull away. "I should go I guess. It's late. I'll call a taxi." I saw the pain in her eyes and I immediately regret what I said. "Don't be silly. I'll drive you home." She said. "I'm sorry but we can't do that. It's too late and too obvious. But thank you." I answered but she noticed I didn't want to go actually. I think I saw sadness in her eyes too but she nodded slowly. I wanted to leave but she pulled me in for another gentle kiss. "Take care of yourself, sweet girl." She whispered and my heart stopped. "You too." That was the only thing I could get out and after that, she let me go. I looked at her one last time before I left.
When I arrived at home, I lied down on my bed. I couldn't sleep. What did I just do? I love her... But it's wrong...
I felt shame. Like I had a guilty conscience. But it felt so right when I was with her. I needed her and she was everything I craved for. I was just an empty soul but she fulfilled me.
She makes me feel things there are no words for.I regretted that I left but it really was late and it would be too obvious if I had stayed the night.
Does she feel the same about us? Is there even an us?The next day at work, I avoided her as much as possible. I can't even explain why. Maybe because I was kind of ashamed. Now she knew how I was or what I was and I felt exposed. I got lost in my thoughts until I heard a knock on the door of my office. Before I could answer, the door opened and the beautiful brunette stepped in, closing the door behind her back. I looked down to my hands and didn't realize I held my breath.
"Hey, could you do me a favor?" She asked and I nodded, still looking down. God, I'd do anything for her. She stepped closer towards my desk and now I was trying to catch my breath. I finally found the courage to look up and I tried not to smile. "Anything." I said without thinking and she smirked. "That's my girl." She said quietly, more to herself than to me and I swallowed hard and bit my lip.
What are you doing here? You wanted to avoid her..."We both have an appointment with some important people in thirty minutes. Could you please send an email to Mr. Miller about the details I sent you?" She asked and I didn't understand why she even asked. I couldn't say no anyway. "O-of course." I said. "Oh and I need you at my office in fifteen minutes." She said and again, my heart stopped. I nodded and she walked away. This women made me so weak.
After fifteen minutes, I arrived at her office, as I've been told. I knocked the door with my shaking hand. "Yes?" I heard and I opened the door, stepping inside and closed it. She leant against her desk. "Tell me one thing and please be honest." She said and I nodded. "Why do you avoid me?" Shit. She noticed.
"Uhm. I- i don't know what you ar-are talking about." I said. "I told you to be honest, y/n." She said, stepping closer to me. Now, there were just a few inches between our bodies. "Why do you run away?" I didn't know what to say."The l- the last time I fell in love wasn't too good a-and I'm afraid. I am so afraid of having to go through that pain again and I-" She interrupted my stammling with a gentle kiss on my lips, wrapping her arms around me.
"I won't hurt you." She whispered and I tried to believe her. "I've heard that before." I said with a shaky voice, looking down. She lifted my chin with her index-finger and thumb, to make eye contact. "I know that pain. I know how it is and I won't let you suffer." She said and connected our lips again.
After a while, she pulled away and I groaned at the loss of her warmth.
"We have to go upstairs for the meeting. We'll talk later?" She said and I nodded.The meeting wasn't that interesting. Just another random men smoking and talking about random things. And we were just sitting there, doing nothing again. But after a while I really got used to it.
When we were finally done, Abby almost dragged me back to her office.
Wow y/n... You wanted to avoid her. You had one damn job!"Would you like to have dinner with me today?" She asked and I smiled big. "I'd love to." I said, happy. "Then at seven o'clock at my house." She said, kissing my forehead.
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