Susan

Prologue

Few Months ago

Anger and distaste was what I felt after those words drops from my mom's mouth as she laughed, dad? Did she actually just refer this man that has been making my life harder than necessary at my young age as my dad?

I can bare with her forcing me to refer to him as daddy but I can't deal with her calling him my 'dad', I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind as I faked laugh to what she said when all I want is to finish this dishes as fast as possible so I can get the f*ck out of this kitchen.

"Maybe, daddy should cook it the next time we want to make beans, so we can see who's is better, I'll be the judge" I said in an amused voice purposefully extending the daddy. Daddy??? More like a lunatic.  Mom just laughed at what I said, he didn't reply at first then he later said in a joking voice "It's true, maybe I will" smaking mom's ass before leaving the kitchen and kissing her cheeks.

I just washed the dishes faster, disgusted by what I saw, no one can ever understand how much I hate him, I finished quickly with the dishes as I was so eager to go my comfort zone, my paradise, my kingdom, my palace, my room.( My room is like heaven to me. I just wished I could lock it sometime)

It would have been funny, how much I disliked my step dad to anyone that didn't know what I have been through. But if they knew what I had dealt with, they would have given up at one point.

As I walked out of my room to take water from the fridge, my mom shouted at me " SUSAN, you should be in bed when you know you have classes tomorrow" I just ignored her, I didn't want to deal with lectures from her at that moment.

One of the things I hated most was sleeping, I resented it tho I don't think I have a phobia, I just hate going to sleep being blinded by darkness and unable to tell what's happening in the outside world at the moment, being defenseless and preparing myself for the predator, but unfortunately I had no choice, my body needs it to function.

     I just hope the get out of here fast and soon because I can't, I just can't do this anymore. I love my mom of course, so much and my sibling too but I just can't tolerate that piece of stinky shit!