Dear Harry,
Sometimes I just lay in my bed looking at the clock waiting until 11:11 just to wish having you beside me.
I know it won’t work. And it hurts.
It hurts to love someone so much that doesn’t think about me, not even one second of his life.
When I spend my whole day looking at a screen. Just to see you.
I don’t know what I did to deserve you in my life.
But I feel so lucky.
I think everything you do is super cute and I can’t stand it.
You are so genuine, so kind.
It melts my heart.
You always care about everyone.
It’s the little things you do that makes me so crazily attracted to you.
If I can give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then you realize how special you are to me.
You never leave my mind even when I have million things to worry about.
I dream about you so many times, wishing that in one of them, you will show up in the real life.
I wish you were here next to me every day so I have someone to help me slay my demon and keep me sane.
And I just wanna lay my head on your lap and fall asleep while you run your fingers through my hair, to the sound of your heartbeats.
Only even in my dreams I wrap my arms around you.
My love for you is so irrational that I can’t even explain.
With you, I’d be completely happy.
I love you so fucking much and it kills me because you’re not mine.
Why do I have to be one in so many millions?
I don’t want to share you.
Why am I afraid to lose you, when you aren’t even mine?
Sometimes all I need is a hug from you.
Then all my broken pieces would fit together again.
Nothing can make me feel like you do.
You are the cure, you are the pain.
You don’t know how much it hurts to wait for someone that never comes.
And I wish I could ignore you like you ignore me.
It’s like, for me you are the moon and for you, I’m one of the stars you can see in the sky every night.
But that’s not all bad.
At least we are under the same sky.
We look at the same stars, at night.
And when I look at you all the stars align.
You’re all worth fighting for.
You make me complete, you’re all that matters.
When everything seems wrong, you make it right.
Basically you kind of took my life and made it into something.
I fell for you so deeply.
I didn’t plan it. It just kind of happened.
I love you more than you will ever believe.
My heart is and will always be yours.
No one is ever gonna love you more than I do.
And I am drowning without your love.
Your voice is my favorite sound.
You are my main source of happiness.
Your smile is what keeps me alive.
I’m so tired.
But you saved me.
And that’s why I’m still here.
I’m still here because I believe that one day I will hug you.
One day, I will fall asleep to the sound of your heartbeat.
With your fingers running through my hair.
And I won’t have to wait until 11:11 to wish having you next to me.
I don’t say I love you because I want to hear it back.
I say it because I want you to know that.
And whoever will make you happy for the rest of your life must hold your hand really tight.
Because that person will be holding my whole world.
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hey! hope you liked it. this is not a fanfic. this was just me exposing my thoughts but i would appreciate if you fav this or add to your library. love you x
